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Maria Vargas
is 77% done
Straight guys liked me best in jeans and sweaters and Wayfarers. The message was: Tone. It. Down. But there was nothing relaxing for me about toning it down, visually or otherwise. Relaxing was being as out there as you wanted, without fear of judgment or reprisal. Relaxing was letting go of the worry—of going to hell, of being judged and found wanting, of being too little or too much.
— Aug 15, 2024 05:05PM
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Maria Vargas
is 92% done
The more myself I was—loud, wisecracking, moody, opinionated—the more he seemed to love me.
— Aug 15, 2024 05:34PM
Maria Vargas
is 74% done
My gay boyfriends were like girlfriends, only guys, but guys without the accreted, distorting layers of straightness and all that came with it—bravado, bluster, brusqueness, BS. Like straight men, they had a horror of many things feminine—our periods especially. But with sex out of the equation, they could see us and celebrate us for who we were.
— Aug 15, 2024 04:59PM
Maria Vargas
is 74% done
Unlike straight men, G and L didn’t care if their girlfriends were overweight or gawky or plain. They cared whether you were clever, whether you got how special it was to be part of the relationships between straight women and gay men. If that ecosystem was where you wanted to live, if you saw its value, you were golden.
— Aug 15, 2024 04:58PM
Maria Vargas
is 62% done
I had made the biggest mistake a girl who loves a gay man can make: not understanding and accepting him as he is. I had tried to twist his admiration and warmth and affection for me into something else. I had squandered it by trying to change it. It was something I’d never do again.
— Aug 15, 2024 04:55PM
Maria Vargas
is 7% done
Once you feel like an outsider, everything becomes a confirmation of that fact.
— Aug 15, 2024 04:03PM
