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Is that a yes?

No. It's an absolutely.

Those words ... absolutely did not have permission to become audible! ... And the impact on the air in the room is totally noticeable, like I've walked up to a cozy fire and started spraying it with gasoline straight from the pump.

It didn't just open Pandora's box but rather smashed the whole thing. I can't put my feelings back in because the box is gone.

Maybe to make something new, you have break something old first.

It feels a little like the crush I've been ignoring and caging up and trying to destroy for years has been unleashed. Not only that, but it's graduated into something bigger. Something tender and squishy and warm in my chest, like this whole time, a second heart has been growing right alongside the first, and it's just started beating on its own for the first time.

My parents were saddled with all kinds of bills. Things insurance didn't - or wouldn't - cover. Years and years of medical debt they never would have crawled out from under.

SPOILER!!!

You went pro to cover your family's debt?

I wanted to be an astronaut. Up until I read about how you have to pee in space.

How do people pee in space?

I don't want to ruin it for you. Google it later.

May I?

May he WHAT?

Actually, who cares. He may whatever all he wants.

While it will be intimate sharing a bed with Deacon ... brushing our teeth side by side feels even more so. Why? Don't ask me. I can't control my body's response to this. It's like an involuntary reaction to sharing a dental hygiene moment.

I've moved past a little smudging of our professional lines and have taken one of those Magic Erasers Kalli loves to use and scrubbed all traces of lines away.