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I used to try to open a path in the darkness, knowing only how to beg. But only when I became naked did the doors of heaven and perception open wide to let me pass.

I want to swallow life down in a single gulp and then maybe something like dying. But my blood is slow. I want to show myself the dirtiest and lowest part of me - and only then can I forgive myself. I want to be forgiven for being so full of sensuality that it is an animal cry inside me, a taste of the harsh voice of the wolf desiring its prey, me!

There is a total silence within me. I get scared. How to explain this silence that I call the Unknown. I’m afraid of it.

“Does anyone hear me? I cry out: mama, and I am a daughter and I am a mother. And I have in me the virus of cruel violence and sweetest love. My children: I love you with my poor body and my rich soul.”

“Real life is a dream, but with open eyes (that see everything distorted). Real life enters us in slow motion, including the most rigorous rationality — it’s a dream.”

“I’m not a dreamer. I only daydream to attain reality.”

“I never learned how to live. I don’t know anything. All I know is how to go on living”

“I am no more than a promise. But I am a star. I feel that I am a star. Shattered. I am a shard of glass on the ground.”

“She says what I don’t have the courage to say because I am afraid of myself? Or because I think speaking is useless? Because what you speak is lost like breath that leaves the mouth when you speak and that bit of breath is lost forever.”

“I simply live in the passing of time. The act of writing is the inevitable result of my being alive. I lost sight of myself so long ago that I am hesitant to try and find myself. I’m afraid to begin. Existing sometimes gives me ♡ palpitations. I’m so afraid to be me . I’m so dangerous. They gave me a name and alienated me from myself.”