Cristian Godfrey's Blog - Posts Tagged "doubt"

I don't sleep well. I haven't ever really slept well. Recently, I've kicked the sleep aids habit and am trying to adjust to some kind of schedule. I don't expect I'll get 8 hours of sleep or even 6 for that matter. I'm currently at about 5 hours of sleep combined with 2.5 hours of torturous, restless, mind spinning awakeness (yes, I made that up on purpose). During this mind spinning time, I think about (obsess) everything over top of a single song soundtrack that I fight by trying to complete the song in my head or coverup by thinking of another song. Neither work and I always go back to whichever song was playing in my head when I woke up. Lately it's been counting crows. Every night. Anyway, this morning I was thinking about the stories for the new book and how they might not be of any interest to anyone. Anywhere But Home had a beginning and a solid conclusion, but I think the stories for the second book are really just a culmination of the demand I've had from readers to know what happened after. The reality is that not much happened. Friendships come and go and I can explain them, but are they interesting enough for anyone else? I feel like it's almost anticlimactic. I got on with my life. Very even keel, "normal" living. Is my "normal" living enough to hold someone's attention? Enough to fill a book? I finally decided that I'm going to keep writing and when I feel like there is enough of a story to share, I'll let someone, who didn't grow up with me but read the first book, read what I have and decide if it's interesting. Maybe the 70 or so pages that I've written are all there is. There are certain subjects I'm not going to touch and I've expanded the time line to something I think might give me enough substance, I'm still not sure. We'll see and I'll keep you posted.