Kel Mitchell

“I’ll take it back to when I didn’t wanna live here on Earth, and I was very suicidal at that moment, and actually was on the other side of a balcony. And to have the thought process of, “I wanna hit an off button,” that’s a scary place to be because for me, that was my answer. I always did it like “I gotta be perfect,” my relationship needs to be like my parents’ relationship that I viewed, but then I go through this horrible divorce and then it’s this embarrassment. And I remember, ‘cause when I tell this story, I tell people I heard a voice that said “Lock yourself in the bathroom, get off this balcony, and lock yourself in the bathroom,” but I know it was the voice of God. I went through my journey after that, getting back to a relationship with him, and that took time – and then finding myself, and saying, “Kel, you need to just find your love within you,” and then doing that, then my beautiful wife comes to me, and my two oldest children and my two youngest children, loving them all the same, within that, and understanding that my journey is a - a learning process, in that mistakes make you who you are, right? I like video games - old school ones – and so in Nintendo, they had a code that you learned and so you can jump levels; the designers made this code so that way they can fix bugs within the game. What I started to understand was, as I got closer to God and I started to get closer with mistakes or understanding who I was, now I know what the designer knows, the designer of me. So now I can jump levels, and I can get throught things a littler quicker than some might do because they are holding on to mistakes. I think that’s beautiful, when you go, “There’s no mistakes there’s just lessons.” And so it’s not going back and fixing anything ‘cause we can’t go back. One of my favorite movies is “Back to the Future,” but you can’t go back and fix it, man. You are who you are, so just learn from it and keep it pushing. Y’all said let’s get deep, right?”
― Kel Mitchell