Nikki Rowe's Blog - Posts Tagged "big-dreams"
Passion or paycheck?
A long time ago, I sat in my English classroom, a few seats back of the ' smart kids ' ( not that I wasn't smart, I was just too free) I fooled around writing letters to my friends and poetry about the world in which we live in; From a young age I have had absolutely no desire to fit in, leaving school at a ripe age of 14 - moving abroad on my own seek independently at 15, unsure of my next step, but so very sure it wasn't where I'd had already been. I had a dream and heart wild enough to believe in it.
Now it's 10 years on, reflecting on this path I chose with the little fear I held. Why now as I have aged, grown wiser and become more responsible and active towards the chase of my dream; do I hold more fear than ever before. ' maybe ' because now I feel I have a whole lot to lose, we're back then I had everything to gain. This statement is not true, but the perspective I held to have it; was. I am feared now, because I know what it's like to have something I love, I know what it's like to achieve a dream I have worked so very hard for, I know what it's like to crave something more than a daily meal & I also know what's its like to lose it all.
When It's a passion; it's a desire, a want; a need to cradle your memories, with moments of ' I'm glad I did this'; rather than ' I wish i did' Life is too short to live by a paycheck, we all have had to; at one stage, but we also have within us the indestructible power to say ' this is not how my story will end' never will that road be simple, but sweetheart, it will be oh so very worth it.
Now it's 10 years on, reflecting on this path I chose with the little fear I held. Why now as I have aged, grown wiser and become more responsible and active towards the chase of my dream; do I hold more fear than ever before. ' maybe ' because now I feel I have a whole lot to lose, we're back then I had everything to gain. This statement is not true, but the perspective I held to have it; was. I am feared now, because I know what it's like to have something I love, I know what it's like to achieve a dream I have worked so very hard for, I know what it's like to crave something more than a daily meal & I also know what's its like to lose it all.
When It's a passion; it's a desire, a want; a need to cradle your memories, with moments of ' I'm glad I did this'; rather than ' I wish i did' Life is too short to live by a paycheck, we all have had to; at one stage, but we also have within us the indestructible power to say ' this is not how my story will end' never will that road be simple, but sweetheart, it will be oh so very worth it.
