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My New Year's Resolution.

1. 3 years ago, I did The Push-Up Challenge. 1,000 push-ups a day, over a period of an entire day. By Sept. of that year I could crank out 1,000 push-ups in a single day. Usually, a few hundred at morning, a few more in the afternoon, then finishing off 1,000 before bed. I felt like my body was made out of concrete when I was done. Over 40 years old and hard as a rock. Then I stopped. Traveled around. My body fluctuated, then I got fat again.
- This New Year's Resolution will be to do 1,000 push-ups in a single setting. I'm 45 and currently overweight. At best I can do probably about 50 push-ups in one setting. This will be a challenge and if I don't accomplish it this year, will try it the next. The New Push-Up Challenge.

2. I wish to meditate twice daily, morning and night. I stopped meditating. Why? Because I was finding so much peace and happiness and I could openly wish for something and it'd happen almost immediately. I couldn't handle that. I felt I had to keep 'my edge.' Felt I didn't deserve great things. My old anger and self-sabotaging tendencies came back. I now know I deserve great things. "Don't be afraid of success," as Nick Halverson says.
-My New Year's Resolution is to meditate twice daily for an entire year, embrace happiness and success.

3. To write daily. Be it journaling, blogging, or writing fiction, I am to write daily.

4. To make LUCK a personal area of study. I spent a great deal of time last year, studying mind control; -persuasion, influence, and got much from it but now feel like 'LUCK' may be closer to a concept that I wish to study more in regards to the life I wish to live and closer to my actual personality and the man that I am.

5. To make The Writers' Retreat of San Buenas and Las Villas de San Buenas as successful and desirous as possible. I want it to be the place that all writers and travelers in the English-speaking world want to visit and for my name to be synonymous with this paradise.
A bonus resolution: This will be the last New Year's Eve that I spend alone. Or more specifically, without somebody special.

Bye, 2016. Unlike others, no hard feelings.

Ezekiel Tyrus says Goodbye to 2014
It was one of those years where one of your biggest highlights was getting fired from a job you held for a half-decade. By far, this year was not my best, (still waiting for that one to happen,) but it wasn't even close to be my worst. However, the status I will give this particular year is, The Most Transformative Year of my life.
Yes, by far, I've changed this year more so than any previous year. I embrace change, have often pursued it, and this year, I declared some time around Spring that I wanted to change my life and I did. Meaning, I've changed more mentally, emotionally and I dare say, spiritually than I ever have. I recognize that I think differently now than I use to. It is a struggle, due to habit, it's very easy to think in the harmful ways in which I did before. It is work. Really, but a labor of love, to train your mind to think in the most effective way possible and I emphasize the labor of LOVE.
You should love spending time with yourself, truly getting to know yourself.
This year, I've gotten closest to myself in a way that'll has made me the happiest.
My New Year's Resolutions include;
1. One too personal to share here.
2. No more sugar. (I did this for the 1st 3 months in 2014 but a girl I was dating insisted I eat her chocolate chip cookies. Never went back.)(I lost 25 pounds in 3 months and was looking and feeling great.)
3. Exercise daily. (My weight fluctuates but this past year, I did accomplish 1,000 push-ups in one day more than once.)
4. Meditate daily.
5. Learn Spanish. (Took 2 years of it in high school. Have worked alongside Mexicans in restaurants for decades and have had relationships with Latin women. Can already speak a little and understand some.)
6. Visit Argentina.
7. Finish 2 novels in 2015. (In 2014, started a novel regarding my college years, -my unhappiest years, and found the book too emotionally draining and put it aside. Began work on a book I thought more fun about sex and my high school years that is blossoming into something else, think Melbourne, FL. Babylon. I've made a solid dent in both books and hope to be done with each by the end of 2015.)
8. Find the love of my life. (I'm aware you can't go on a first date discussing marriage plans and shopping for side-by-side cemetery plots but I want to be in love again, want to be loved. People are more accepting of public declarations of sex and not wanting to be in a relationship than they are of people admitting they want to find the love of their life. I'll be 44 this year. Better late than never and I am ready. With all due respect to my previous relationships, I was not ready then but I am ready now. I think it'll happen between now and the next year or so. Not just a girlfriend, not just a wife, but the love of my life.)
9. Forgive myself. (I've been working on this for awhile. It is difficult but life-affirming. I've been punishing myself long enough and the truth is, you can't forgive anybody till you forgive yourself and the person I've been hurting the most has always been me.) (Meditation and prayer will be major tools for this project.)
10. To know beyond a doubt which foreign country I will be calling home some day. To be an expatriate is a life-long ambition and I don't want to give that up.
‪#‎EzekielTyrusNewYearsResolutions‬.
A park bench in Buenos Aires, Argentina.
And an Argentine highway late at night.

Philogynist by Ezekiel Tyrus.

May 27, 2014 at 4:08pm

Everybody knows the word 'Misogynist' -one who hates women but few know the word 'Philogynist' -one who loves and admires women.

It shouldn't be like that.

You don't have to teach young boys to 'respect' their friends. They already do that because they like and admire their friends. You don't have tell them, 'treat your friends with respect,' because they' already do, they're friends. They like their friends.

I know I'm repeating myself. That's the point.

Hey, little dudes, you don't judge your friends because they're your friends and you like your friends.

If you judge them, they won't be your friends.

So, you want to fuck women? First, you've got to actually like women like you like your friends. You've got to admire the way women carry themselves, their sense of humors, their minds, their passions, their ideals, their perseverance in societies not made in their favor. You've got to actually enjoy their company regardless of what you're doing just like when you are hanging with your homies.

The techniques of pick-up artists, (why capitalize it?) are the same as cross-examining lawyers, confession-beating cops and unethical salesmen. Never been to law school, or been a cop but I use to sell cars. It's about finding a person's insecurities, enhancing it, then manipulating them till they lose their identities and literally become dependent on what you tell them.

It's scumbaggery and some people can do it well. They are bad people. Don't emulate them.

You're afraid of being 'friend-zoned?'

If you want more than a friend, let her know. If she doesn't want that, then back off. There will be others. Don't be the 'friend' trying to get into her pants and openly resenting her and the guys she actually does date.

However, there are HUGE benefits to the 'friend zone.' When you've got a platonic female friend, she can give you advice on all the other girls with whom you are communicating. "What does this mean? What does that mean? Should I do this? Should I do that? What clothes look good on me for a first date?"

She'a a female. She'll want to help you date other girls. She'll let you in on their secrets. Always a good idea to have a few platonic female friends so you know what to do to be desirable around women.

Another crazy benefit of being in the 'friend zone,' when she has a co-worker or female acquaintance who is intrigued by you, who is that woman going to talk to? Don't you want a female around to sing your praises?

Believe me, I've enjoyed good relationships and have had a few incredible one-night stands because of the solid female references they knew personally.

I've never called a woman a slut in my life, unless that's what she wanted me to do, privately, in bed. It's a condemning word filled with judgement. You don't judge your friends, don't judge women for simply enjoying sex.

I'm 42, never married and have enjoyed an eclectic and varied sex life with no regrets. Why shouldn't anybody else?

The secret to my success is that I really like women. I like their energy, their strengths, their loves, their stories, their interests, their desires, their laughter, LOVE a woman's laughter; because you're not making love to a body, you're making love to a person. Being confident, smart and relatively good-looking has helped me but I also notoriously carried around a shitload of self-destructive baggage for decades that I've only recently lost. And it was the women in my life, the friends and lovers who kept me alive.

I've been very lucky in that sense.

Hey, young man. I hear you want to get laid and learn how to pick-up chicks?

Well, before you buy the fake tan, the expensive clothes and the BMW and take those classes to learn the bogus manipulation techniques from scumbags who don't deserve to call themselves artists, first and foremost, you've actually got to like women, like having them around, like talking to them, communicating with them, being friends with them, because otherwise, sex is not going to happen.
The one thing I love most about women? Intuition.

And I implore all women to never ignore their intuition. You were blessed with it for a reason. Always listen. And young men, a woman knows if you like her for her or if you only want one thing and hate everything else.

So, boys, get past the way she looks for a minute and try to admire everything about her you can observe. (The way she dresses, talks, walks, laughs, smiles, strike up a conversation, you might have politics and music in common.) -Then do that to the next one and the one after that.

When you find you like and admire most women you meet, most will like and admire you back.

Really, it's that simple.

-Ezekiel Tyrus

The tragic Clutter family, portrayed through the book and film, 'In Cold Blood' were once in the decade or so before the tragedy, a thriving farm with numerous businesses, including breeding sheepdogs. A neighbor bought a puppy for their son, Denny and he loved the dog. (If you've not read 'In Cold Blood' or seen the classic with Robert Blake, you really should.)

Later, Denny and his family, plus the dog, moved to L.A. where a teenage Denny took an interest in acting and become hugely successful as Dennis Hopper.

Source -'Hopper' by Tom Folsom.

I was on my lunch break today at work and checking Fecebook on my phone when I found out I was awarded The Kathy Acker Award for Fiction.

I gulped and reread my name several times. It wasn't a mistake.

Then, I stood outside and stretched my arms towards the sky and shouted, "YES!!"

Happiness is a good fit for me, I think I'll keep it.

When I wrote Eli,Ely, I gave myself two choices; commit suicide or write a book. That's not a joke. I made the right decision. It might've been the first time in my life I ever made the right decision but I did.

And if anybody out there is thinking about suicide, don't do it.
Things'll turn around, I promise you.

The Acker Awards

You know the best part of the nude selfie I got from the reader in Las Vegas? She's got a great body and nice skin but look at the book, it's dogeared and written upon and clearly, thoroughly read, and enjoyed.

Nothing's sexier than a woman who reads.

It reminds me of what David Markson wrote in regards to an author's ultimate goal as a writer, "Play a little. WIth luck a phrase or three worth some lonely pretty girl's midnight underlining."

Worth repeating …

It reminds me of what David Markson wrote in regards to an author's ultimate goal as a writer, "Play a little. WIth luck a phrase or three worth some lonely pretty girl's midnight underlining."

Another 5 Star review on Amazon. I cherish these reviews. Totally makes up for that nasty rejection letter I received from a literary agent on my 35th birthday when I was unemployed, living with my parents, and suffering from bleeding hemorrhoids.
Thank you, this reader got it.
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Unforgettable

May 17, 2014
Format: Kindle Edition
To be honest, I was surprised. Sure, there's a "loved, lost and learned" thing going on, as I expected. But this story is anything but typical.

At its core, Eli, Ely is one man's internal, Beat-soaked prize fight for love and purpose, with sex--and lots of it--serving as a constant reflection point. Our narrator, writer/performer Eli Trocchi, is tough, abrasive, troubled and occasionally mean-spirited... yet he's also whip-smart, a good friend and a bit of a sweetie. Not once do any of these traits FEEL contradictory, which is a tribute to how author Ezekiel Tyrus is able to lay bare all of Eli's triumphs, flaws and insecurities in precise and often brutal detail.

Eli, Ely is a lot of fun to boot. I look forward to much more from this author.

Yesterday I had a wonderful healthy and tasty vegan breakfast, it made me feel like a better person. …By noon, I WAS FUCKING STARVING!!!! Today, I'm getting two eggs over medium, bacon, a potato cake, silver dollar pancakes, strong coffee and splashy tabasco on everything edible.

Seriously thinking of changing my name to 'Happy Tyrus.'