Tonya Coffey's Blog - Posts Tagged "why"
Life
I recently had to deal with those unexpected things that pop up in life that make you wonder if there is an all powerful being watching over us.
It is hard to watch the person(s) you love go threw an illness when there is nothing you can do about it. You feel helpless and alone while they suffer and tell you everything will be ok.
Why is it they have all the confidence when you question existence?
I know I am not the only one who has sat next to a loved one and cried or held the hand of a person who is fighting for their life. I want to understand why the best people, who have never laid hands on another or said a bad word toward another, are the ones who suffer.
Watching them, I see the goodness in their heart. The love they spread to others. Why make them suffer while a person with no regards to their own lives don't?
When I was smaller, I went to church. I was taught each of us only receive what we can handle. What will make the people around us stronger. I still question it. I still wonder why a person should go through trials, to make another believe in what is happening around them. To believe in a higher power.
I see their strength and their courage and it makes me question my own. Would I be able to endure what they went through? I know I wouldn't have the same look on life. The same unchanging faith they hold so dear.
It is hard to watch the person(s) you love go threw an illness when there is nothing you can do about it. You feel helpless and alone while they suffer and tell you everything will be ok.
Why is it they have all the confidence when you question existence?
I know I am not the only one who has sat next to a loved one and cried or held the hand of a person who is fighting for their life. I want to understand why the best people, who have never laid hands on another or said a bad word toward another, are the ones who suffer.
Watching them, I see the goodness in their heart. The love they spread to others. Why make them suffer while a person with no regards to their own lives don't?
When I was smaller, I went to church. I was taught each of us only receive what we can handle. What will make the people around us stronger. I still question it. I still wonder why a person should go through trials, to make another believe in what is happening around them. To believe in a higher power.
I see their strength and their courage and it makes me question my own. Would I be able to endure what they went through? I know I wouldn't have the same look on life. The same unchanging faith they hold so dear.
What to do?
So I have been writing for many years. I took some classes on how to create novels and stories for children. I didn't attend college or get a degree in writing. I know I'm not perfect when it comes to writing sentences without any errors. I am working on it.
I don't like how other authors treat ones who haven't spent years in a university. I'm not saying every author does this but I dislike how people can stand in front of your face and speak to you with sentences filled with words I have to look up in a dictionary. Yeah, I'm not smart. So what, it doesn't mean I can't come up with a great story and tell it. It's as if they are trying to look more important because they can talk the way they are.
When I talked to this person, they treated me as if I had no business being an author. They asked how long I'd been writing, why I chose to be one, where I went to school, who my publisher was, did I pay to have my book published, and a bunch of other stuff. As I answered his questions, I watched his facial expressions. I am the type person that I will smile and show respect. I never act as if I am better than anyone. It wasn't how I was raised. Anyway, this person laughed at a few of my answers then sighed as he pointed out my history of no education would be my downfall. No sensible publishing house would take a writer without knowledge of grammar.
Huh?
I smiled and said thank you and went on my way. I try not to let things like this bother me but should I? Does it matter that I don't have a paper hanging on my wall telling I went to a big university and was at the top of the Dean's list? I don't get why people like this think they are better than me because they have more education.
I don't like how other authors treat ones who haven't spent years in a university. I'm not saying every author does this but I dislike how people can stand in front of your face and speak to you with sentences filled with words I have to look up in a dictionary. Yeah, I'm not smart. So what, it doesn't mean I can't come up with a great story and tell it. It's as if they are trying to look more important because they can talk the way they are.
When I talked to this person, they treated me as if I had no business being an author. They asked how long I'd been writing, why I chose to be one, where I went to school, who my publisher was, did I pay to have my book published, and a bunch of other stuff. As I answered his questions, I watched his facial expressions. I am the type person that I will smile and show respect. I never act as if I am better than anyone. It wasn't how I was raised. Anyway, this person laughed at a few of my answers then sighed as he pointed out my history of no education would be my downfall. No sensible publishing house would take a writer without knowledge of grammar.
Huh?
I smiled and said thank you and went on my way. I try not to let things like this bother me but should I? Does it matter that I don't have a paper hanging on my wall telling I went to a big university and was at the top of the Dean's list? I don't get why people like this think they are better than me because they have more education.
