Finally we are home... and I can't tell you what it feels like to have spent 2 nights in my own bed! Pure heaven.  No aching back from the different beds, Charlie happy to see us, mom and dad relieved to see us so that they could get their life back, the dogs tails wagging as we walked through the door. It was great. 

Back to normal... or so they say! 

Although I am not sure that waking up at 3am is normal in my world, nor ignoring emails and work until now, but even so, I'm happy!

The tour was incredible, it's had it's highlights but it was also extremely grueling and hard work, hence why emails have been ignored and life put on hold.  I suppose people see the fact that I am traveling from place to place and meeting different people is glamourous, but I often comment on the amount of back alleys, and kitchens and very unglamorous stair cases that I have to walk up and down... it's hardly what you would consider glam. But I love it. 

But the tour for me had a very big lesson for me, and that was trust and also speaking the truth.  It wasn't an easy lesson but it was something that I had to see.  I also had to work out who had my back and who didn't and that is always a big lesson. 

I am one of those people who immediately has faith in everyone who is placed in my pathway thinking that they will provide what I need... and all of the time they do... even if it's negative, what they provide me with is a lesson. 

This was it.  Yes I had Holly who was there for me emotionally and trust me, when I say I needed it, as I don't think I have ever cried so much, but this was time for me to stand up and speak. 

Yes it's been a lesson that I have been learning for a while and I have blogged about it, but this really hit home. I had to be blunt, honest, direct, and not worry about how it was taken. 

But what I also realized was that even though I was the one who had to say their side of things, I knew there was a lesson in the it for others.  I was showing them a pathway, a truth that maybe they hadn't seen before.  However you can show someone the door but you can't make them walk through it.  And this was the case. I had to point out some things but is is up to others to see it and allow them to recognize it within them and it's only then that they can do something about it. 

I'm not sure if they will... as I don't think that they have seen it... yet... but when they do, they will understand it and see the light and maybe do something about it. 

You can't change how people want to see things at all, but all you can do is help them and this I feel was my lesson, I had to stand up and help others see what they need to see.  Who knows if it will help, but thats not my journey that is there's but I only hope it will. 

So don't force someone to see something, just show them the way and then let them find their pathway. Some will go in circles, others will directly make the changes and take responsibility but know that we all have lessons to learn through everything even the negative parts of life. 

Right, I can't put it off, it's time to open the emails and down load however many there are and face life head on... 

Thanks to everyone who came to see me on tour, I had an amazing time even though it was hard, the easiest part is doing the work I love and meeting everyone who comes to the shows! Thank you to all of you. 

With love

Lisa xx