What a day.

I'm exhausted.

Today, I quit my job.

I don't even know where to start. I'm just so overwhelmed with how quickly things have occurred, with the idea of leaving all of my friends and coworkers, packing and moving, having to set up all of my shows to record on a new DVR…you know, big life changes like that.

I've been wanting to quit my job for awhile. Not necessarily because I'm unhappy with my job, but because I'm unhappy with my life. I feel totally stuck and I need a change. You may remember I blogged many months back about wanting to move out to Nevada because my best friend Aaron lives out there, and home prices are crazy cheap out there, and I thought it would be a good place to make a change. Well, I tried. And tried and tried and tried. I applied for everything, from working at a university, to working at a bookstore, or a casino, or the circus. Well, not the circus, but pretty much everything else. And I got nothing. It probably wasn't helping matters that Las Vegas has one of the worst unemployment rates in the nation.

One random day in December, I was driving home for lunch. Out of nowhere, I thought I wonder if I should move home with my family and try to find a job in Fresno. As soon as I got home, I went online and looked for jobs at Fresno Pacific University. And they had a job posted that I was totally qualified for. I sent in my resume that day, had an interview booked the following day, and 3 weeks later, I have the job.

So I am completely changing my life. In mid-February, I will be moving home to Coarsegold. I will be living in my childhood bedroom (except I'm bringing my queen bed with me, obv). I will be commuting 45 minutes to work, I will be going back to school to get my AS in Health Information Technology, and I'm going to find the discipline to become the person I know I can be.

I actually feel totally blessed to have this opportunity. Parents aren't around forever, you know, and I will value my time with them as precious. I'm also very thankful to have the opportunity to save up a good deal of money so that when I'm ready, I can move out on my own and buy a house. But most of all, I'm thankful for time. While I love my friends here and there are so many good things about my life, there is just constant noise. I need an opportunity to get away somewhere where I can breathe and think and grow and learn. And I know I can come out on the other side as the Heidi that I keep losing sight of.

So go ahead, make fun of me. Sure, I'm 29 and I'm moving in with my parents. I'm taking a step back from a very stable career. But here's the thing – if I don't do it now, I never will. And I'll wake up and I'll be 40, working in a job I don't like, talking to my cats, and wondering how I let life slip away from me so easily.

No more. I'm taking a stand. I have decided to take as much control as possible of my destiny, and I can't wait to see what's in store for me.

Even still, it's bittersweet. There are a lot of people I am really going to miss. I think I cried about 10 times at work today as people found out the news. And I will cry many more times over the next few weeks while I pack up my life and say my goodbyes.

Crap, it's starting again. I think I need another glass of the $5.97 sparkling wine I picked up on the way home.