After my mother’s departure from this world, for quite some months a simple word said in a conversation had the power ruining me to pieces. It was sort of a ‘trigger’, you could say? I would start feeling anxious and have a headache and to summarise, it was totally horrible!

The following piece of writing was written after one of those moments when I just wanted someone to console me and calm me down but was too scared to ask someone.

One word

I hear

Gets stuck

In my brain

Thoughts spiral

Out of control

Legs shaking

I can’t stand

Can’t write

Am scared

From deep

Deep within my bones

See me

For who I am

Who

My demons are

Embrace me

As I am

My tears

My smiles

And

Calm me down.