Most times when people have epiphanies, they are a generally good. Mines didn’t feel so good. In fact, it actually made me feel bad. I woke up out of my sleep with a heaviness and something said, ‘STOP BEING SO HARD! HOW CAN ANYONE HELP YOU, IF YOU WON’T LET THEM IN! LET IT GO!’  I literally heard those words. I don’t know if it was a spiritual thing, or a psychotic break. All I know was that it tugged at my heart-strings and not in a good way. I knew it was the truth. I knew that I lived within a wall stronger and taller than the wall of China. All I could do was pray. I asked the Lord to remove my hardness, to take it away from me, so I can be all that he wants me to be.

For the last few weeks, I have been working on letting go. For the first time in a long time, I’m learning to let go of the past and focus on the present and my future. Living in the past was destroying me and my relationships. I thought by shutting down I was protecting myself, but I was actually doing more harm than good. I’m still a work in progress, but each day gets a little bit better and better. Don’t misunderstand me, though. It’s scary as hell, being open and trusting people to not hurt me. It’s scary to feel vulnerable or judged all the time for doing things that you know you need to do to better yourself. Sometimes you get so used to the hurt, pain, disappointments, and you start to think that it’s you or that it is normal, but it’s NOT!

Although God tells us that we will have days of trouble, He does not say that all of our days should be troublesome. God also says that He can give us peace! Having your peace is unlike anything in the entire world.  The calmness, confidence, and lightness you feel will make you feel better and give you a craving for PEACE.

As I embrace on this journey of peace, I realize how important this scripture is. It’s not the type of trouble we have or even who we have it with; the most important thing is how we react to it! We can’t control others. We can only work on ourselves and until we realize that, we will always be stagnant!

I’m ready for my PEACE, are you? I’m leave you with this….when you find it hard to keep your peace just remember this scripture…

BE BLESSED!