HAVE YOU EVER HAD AN EXPERIENCE WHERE YOU STARTED GETTING REALLY ANGRY OVER SOMETHING BUT DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY? CHANCES ARE YOU WERE AFRAID OF SOMETHING. THAT'S WHY I TITLED THIS THE UNAPPARENT APPEARANCE OF FEAR.

FEAR HAS BEEN A SERIOUS DESTROYER OF RELATIONSHIPS, AND WE TEND TO BLAME IT ON SOMEONE OR SOMETHING ELSE. "IRRECONCILABLE DIFFERENCES" NO, IT'S 9 TIMES OUT OF 10 FEAR. WHAT ARE WE AFRAID OF. THAT WILL BE DIFFERENT FOR ALL OF US. WHAT ONE OF US IS AFRAID OF, MANY OTHERS WILL NOT FIND IT SCARY AT ALL. FEARS MANY TIMES COME FROM PAST EXPERIENCES WE HAVE HAD THAT LEFT US FEELING LESS THAN HAPPY ABOUT THOSE EXPERIENCES.

I HAVE HAD A LOT OF TRIGGERS DUE TO ALL THE TRAUMA I HAVE ENDURED. IT MAY BE POSSIBLE THAT SOME OF THOSE TRIGGERS WILL NEVER LEAVE ME TILL I GET TO HEAVEN, I DON'T KNOW. BUT I HAVE COME TO SEE THAT FEAR IS THE CAUSE FOR A LOT OF MY TRIGGERS. SOMEWHERE IN THE CIRCUMSTANCE THAT I AM IN, I SEE OR SENSE SOMETHING SIMILAR TO A PAST EXPERIENCE AND FEAR RISES UP IN ME, BUT HAS THE APPEARANCE OF ANGER, RAGE, OR JUST PLAIN CRAZY.

IN MY BOOK I TALK ABOUT THE TERROR FITS I HAD WHEN BEING A PASSENGER OR A DRIVER IN A CAR. THOSE TERROR FITS MANIFESTED IN SWEATY PALMS, TEARS, SCREAMS, SHAKING, NERVOUSNESS, ANXIOUS THOUGHTS, UNCONTROLLABLE ANGER AND PROBABLY A HOST OF OTHER EMOTIONS AND/OR ACTONS. I HAD TO COME TO THE PLACE WHERE I WAS WILLING TO ADMIT MY FEAR AND LEARN HOW TO LET IT GO. THAT WAS A PROCESS THAT I TALK ABOUT IN THE BOOK.

WHEN FEAR IS BEHIND THE EMOTIONAL OUTBURST YOU HAVE, ALL YOU SEE IS YOURSELF GET REALLY ANGRY OR FIDGETY AND THIS FLIGHT OR FIGHT MENTALITY TAKES OVER IN YOU.

NORMALLY THERE IS NOT A WHOLE LOT YOU WILL DO ABOUT THE FEAR WHEN YOU FIRST HAVE THIS HAPPEN EXCEPT ALLOW IT TO MANIPULATE YOUR EMOTIONS, WORDS, ACTIONS AND BELIEFS. BUT AFTER THE FACT, IF YOU WILL SIT DOWN AND CALMLY, HUMBLY ANALYZE WHAT CAUSED YOU TO REACT THE WAY YOU DID, THEN YOU WILL PROBABLY BE ABLE TO SEE THE FEAR. ONCE YOU REALIZE FEAR WAS BEHIND YOUR OUTBURST YOU CAN BEGIN TO HEAL IF YOU'RE WILLING.

I HAVE FOUND THAT HEALING IS WORK. GOD IS THE GREAT PHYSICIAN AND HOLDS ALL THE POWER TO HEAL US, BUT THERE ARE MANY TIMES HE WILL HAVE US DO "SOMETHING" FOR OUR HEALING TO MANIFEST IN US. I HAVE GONE THROUGH MANY HEALING PROCESSES AND BELIEVE ME THEY HAVE BEEN PROCESSES. NOTHING I HAVE AQUIRED HAS REALLY COME EASY FOR ME. I HAVE FOUGHT FOR ALL I HAVE, MY SANITY, MY FAITH, MY RESTORATION AND MY HEALING. THOUGH I AM GRATEFUL THAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME THE VICTORY IN ALL OF IT AND WILL CONTINUE TO COMMAND MY VICTORIES, THERE ARE TIMES I WISH LIFE WAS NOT SO DIFFICULT. BUT GOD IS WITH ME THROUGH IT ALL AND HE COMMANDS MY STRENGTH, THANK YOU, JESUS.

THE SAME IS TRUE FOR YOU. ONE THING YOU CAN DO TO NOT PROLONG YOUR PROCESS TO HEAL IS BEGIN HEARING THE WORDS YOU ARE SPEAKING AND CHANGING THEM WHEN NECESSARY. THINGS LIKE, "I HATE BEING DIABLED." CHANGE IT TO, "GOD, THOUGH MY FLESH DOES NOT ENJOY BEING DISABLED, I KNOW YOU ARE DOING A MIGHTY WORK IN ME AND I SUBMIT TO YOUR PLAN. THANK YOU FOR SUPPLYING MY EVERY NEED ACCORDING TO YOUR RICHES IN GLORY AND THANK YOU FOR COMMANDING MY STRENGTH AND VICTORY OVER THIS DISABILITY. IN JESUS NAME. AMEN." SAYING THINGS LIKE, "I'M SICK AND TIRED." ONLY KEEPS YOU SICK AND TIRED. INSTEAD TELL YOUR SELF YOU CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS YOU. TELL YOURSELF, "BY HIS STRIPES I AM HEALED."

ALSO, DON'T KNOWINGLY ALLOW SOMEONE ELSE TO SPEAK NEGATIVELY OVER YOU. SUCH AS, SOMEONE IS IN YOUR PRESENCE AND WANTS TO GO SOMEWHERE WITH YOU AND YOU TELL THEM NO YOU DON'T WANT TO GO. THEY SAY, "YOU NEVER WANT TO GO, YOU ALWAYS SAY NO. YOU'RE LIKE A BUMP ON A LOG." YOU SHOULD CORRECT THEM, PREFERABLY IN A NICE GENTLY WAY, BUT CORRECT THEM NONE-THE-LESS.

OUR WORDS HOLD SERIOUS POWER, SO ONE THING GOD WILL HAVE YOU DO TO RECIEVE YOUR HEALING, A LOT OF TIMES, IS SPEAK HIS WORD OVER YOURSELF. MAYBE YOU HAVE HEARD THE SAYING, "DON'T TELL GOD ABOUT YOUR MOUNTAIN, TELL YOUR MOUNTAIN ABOUT YOUR GOD." IT WORKS VERY WELL. I HAVE NOT YET COMPLETED MY HEALING PROCESSES BUT I AM STILL ON TRACK TO GOD'S HEALING POWER MANIFESTING IN MY BODY, SOUL AND SPIRIT. THANK YOU, JESUS. I PRAY THESE PRACTICAL TIDBITS OF ADVICE HELP YOU. ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT PATIENCE IS A CHARACTERISTIC OF LOVE. WHEN YOU SHOW PATIENCE TO YOURSELF, GOD AND OTHERS, YOU ARE LOVING GOD, YOURSELF AND OTHERS. IT'S OK IF THE HEALING PROCESS TAKES TIME, IT'S A MARATHON NOT A SPRINT AND GOD KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING.

HAVE A FABULOUS DAY. BE BLESSED.