As I was turning the pages of my self-awareness journal, I found that 8 years ago, I was struggling with career and money. 

8 years from then, as of today, I’m still struggling with career and money. 

A question arose within me — could it be possible that the journey that I’m on is just another chase?

Could it be possible that the journey that I’m on will not lead to any arrival at all?

What is it that I’ve been seeking all these years? And what did I find? 

To begin with, I did not know what I truly wanted. 

And even in the moments I did know, I kind of sidelined it, thinking it is too far fetched…and not practical…and won’t pay me money… 

What is the thing that I’ve been genuinely seeking. All these years? 

Learning. 

About the self. And about my craft. 

The former, I’m somewhat satisfied with; for I have found my uniqueness. My talent(s). 

The latter, I’ve led astray. For I believed that it is possible to learn in the world. From the people of the world. 

I believed that I could just work for a great boss (by great I mean someone who has achieved a lot) and learn from him. 

The problem with this approach is that first, your boss is a product of their environment and the culture that surrounds him. 

Everything that they say can only be picked up from the world. And that which is picked up from the world cannot be rare or otherworldly. It certainly cannot provide the elixirs to the craft. 

And if it cannot provide the elixirs to the craft, it can only be common. And I have no interest in the common. 

Secondly, there is no intent in this type of learning. You are being told to do this and that. What you are learning is in service of doing this and that. This and that is common…and the same thing that everyone else is doing.

This type of learning can certainly never make me a master. It can only make me a follower. And in being a follower, I will only become like everyone else. 

And in my heart of hearts, I know that I was born for greatness. 

And by greatness, I do not mean appearing on national television. 

By greatness, I mean truly figuring out the game. Learning all the secrets. The ins and outs of the game. So completely…that you’re able to own it on your fingertips. 

So that I can die with the peaceful realization, that nothing was left behind… 

That I have fulfilled my aim to learn everything about my craft. 

This is my true arrival… the end to all chases.