“He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord.” – Proverbs 18:22

Entrepreneurship is a rabbit hole and it is not for the weak! I went down a rabbit hole creating a multitude of different art pieces while finding my niche in this wild and wicked world.

Originally Melanin Midas Empire was meant to be a YouTube Show for my little family. At the time we were experiencing the loss of my mother, Catrinea ‘Trina’ Brunner as well as one of my daughters, Jordan Danielle. This caused me to find different outlets to express that pain and ART became an amazing outlet for me to do just that.

It also helped me to create an even stronger bond with my children but not the husband. Instead of growing closer together. We grew further apart and despite how much I love God and read this Bible, I understood 1 thing and that was that God was ending this marriage whether I wanted it to end or not. It was already over and I simply needed to accept it.

*Heard It All Before by Sunshine Anderson*

After overlooking and praying for a change within this particular man. He only became worse. More agitated. More hostile. Taking it out on me more and more until I had enough and told him to leave. He did just that and I still held out hope that after 14 years of knowing each other that we could at least be cordial for the children.

That’s something a narcissistic and manipulative individual could never be is cordial or civil or the sake of anybody. All they know is discord and turmoil. Peace does NOT live within them. Instead they thrive on drama and fighting. Always angry and making excuses for their anger instead of bettering themselves.

Being married…. not once but twice helped me to understand how I wanted my marriage to actually go. How I wanted my household to run and at that moment I felt as if I walked around on eggshells daily feeling like a burden on a man that couldn’t remain faithful or respectful.

*Dirty Laundry by Kelly Rowland*

We fought more and more. We couldn’t see eye to eye on anything and it’s only when I suggested that he find somebody that makes him happy and loves him unconditionally because clearly that person was not me is when he so badly felt the need to prove his love and undying love and devotion to his wife. All the while still cheating, still lying, and still playing victim to situations that he caused.

I could’ve nagged daily and instead I constantly looked the other way because when I married Darron Duarte Love on March 3, 2017…… I went home and looked at that man thinking ‘WTF’ because nowhere in my heart of hearts did I believe he’d ever be true to me the way I knew I’d be true to him. The way I honored my vows….. He certainly did the opposite of that.

He cheated incessantly and blamed his brothers and cousins for teaching him wrong. Blamed his father. Blamed his mother. Blamed everybody except looking in the mirror at the man doing the cheating. The cheating came at no surprise and so I overlooked it. Prayed on it and hoped for better.

*Heard It Through The Grapevine by Marvin Gaye*

The lack of sex in a marriage where the spouse is actively cheating is unfathomable because how do you have the time and energy to cheat while giving your wife the blues daily? To create wild notions to support for infidelity such as his wife being oh so horrible. In reality, he was the devil. The same devil you read about being defeated in the Bible is the same devil I married named Darron Duarte Love.

During the multiple ‘get togethers’ that I hosted for family and friends….. we argued afterwards because the guys seemed to showcase desire for me. Apparently he made it his mission to stare the men down because he tells me that he sees the way these different men look at me and know that they want me. However these ‘men’ were invited into our apartment as friends and family. I’m not dressed ‘inappropriately’ and quite frankly we all have eyes to see and we all have preferences. Their stares were never my issue.

Only his but of course he’d have an issue. As for as he’s concerned, all it takes is the right set of eyes to talk that talk and spill all of his dirty little secrets of infidelity and yet not a one did that because the most common belief amongst family and friends is that we were HAPPILY MARRIED and never breaking up……..

God said…… IN DUE TIME

*Be Careful by Sparkle & R. Kelly*

After the move from Jackson, MS to Dallas, TX…… the song changed drastically and now the problem was my lack of support in him and his music career. I am forever grateful for the learning experiences and the journey because of the acquired skills that I get to walk away with.

After losing Jordan Danielle, I vowed to stop being so angry at a man that was cheating on me BEFORE we got married and was STILL cheating on me after being married. I accepted that it was my fault for ever putting up with it in the first place and that there was no need in truly complaining. Might as well let that man cheat in peace if I’m not going to leave, right?

From cheating, to lack of sex, to fighting, to a drug addiction…….

Only so much I can put up with before I’m filing for divorce from another man. While fully understanding that me and my children will be just fine with God and no husband/father in our household. I prayed extensively on what to do because the overdosing and drug debts, I won’t about to do.

*Keep Your Head Up by 2Pac*

I hated the thought of just up and leaving and I knew he’d try to do everything to prove that he’s a changed man and yet a changed man I did not see. So I prayed and God answered……

Being broken gracefully……

As you see I was already praying for an end to my marriage. I already understood that no matter the time frame of this relationship, this simply was NOT the man that God had intended for me. So when the truth of his sick minded ways(pedophilia) was revealed, I now simply needed to get away. Me and my children. I did just that.

I’ve been targeted and attacked for leaving a man that only ever committed adultery, abandoned us, as well as abused us. People think abandonment is only in terms of physically leaving and instead that is not the case. He willing fully walked out the door to go to other females houses to lay up and playhouse with them. That’s abandonment and adultery. Not only that he purposefully withheld funds as a means of financial domestic violence. No food. No clean clothes.

I prayed even harder as I watched him slowly transform into a complete stranger before my very eyes because I kid you not….. it’s a many things that Darron Duarte Love did that I, till this day, is still amazed that he did because WTF???

I sweet talked him into helping me get back to MS with my children as I was pregnant with Tristian Joanne. The moment we got back, I got ducked off but I wasn’t hidden. Friends and family taking his side and telling him my whereabouts rather than allowing the people within the relationship to figure it out and handle it.

*One Sweet Day by Mariah Carey & Boyz II Men*

My sole purpose was to ensure that my child seen the light of day. I have tried my hardest to NOT blame anybody for Jordan Danielle’s demise while not beating myself up about it so much as well. At first I fully wanted to blame the doctors for not being better doctors. Then I blamed myself and my body for being too weak to withstand the pregnancy. The entire I refused to blame Darron Duarte Love for the constant stress I was under with him.

The constant arguments in the pregnancy. The fights and everything. I looked at my stillborn daughter and fully believed that I got too angry the month before when I found out that Darron Duarte Love had been cheating while I laid on my deathbed trying to keep food and liquids down and get back to my children.

The most hurt I’ve been in that marriage to have him look me dead in my face and say he wasn’t sleeping with another woman while I laid in the hospital bed trying to stay alive. Yeah that was the LAST STRAW and then the next month, Jordan Danielle is stillborn.

An eye opener because now I truly want out of this marriage. So I prayed……

*Commitment by Monica*

Instead of being bitter and angry in the end. I became more loving towards him. Nicer. Friendlier. The sweetest words spoken as he happily tells me about the women that he’s sleeping with. Maybe he thought I had really lost my entire mind and in this moment he was having his cake and eating it too.

The entire time I knew the moment I got back to MS….. I was going to get ducked off and it was quite possible that he’d never see me again. Either way this marriage was over. Even after getting back….. I never stopped being a good loving WOMAN. Not friend. Not wife. None of that. I wasn’t about to allow this break up to make me bitter. I was happy for it to end. I was happy to be single again. I was happy to be on my own in. my own and making my own money. Not having to worry about ANYTHING or ANYBODY.

My happiness was the very thing that caused him to lose his complete mind. Believing another man was making me happy. The sabotage was next. All because I was happy without him. Didn’t matter if I was with somebody else or not. He didn’t turn against me. He was now finally fighting for that good woman that FULLY SUPPORTED him and catered to his every want and need. The wife of his dreams but not the love of his life.

*Dreamgirls by Jennifer Holliday*

Because that’s exactly what I was to MY HUSBAND but the moment that marriage was over. I became a spectator to the Darron Duarte Love HOEDOWN……. as I was no longer a participant in this fukk’d up bachelor show, I focused on myself and my household and I haven’t looked back.

No desire to look back. No resentment either. Despite him trying to kill me (slashing tires & brake lines), I continue to pray, keeping God first with the full understanding that WHAT’S DONE IN THE DARK WILL COME TO LIGHT!

Now here’s an image of where Melanin Midas Empire originally started and in the book it’s mentioned as a reality show because it was ALWAYS supposed to been a SHOW for family and friends to come together and showcase their talents.

The focus being on my little family and the guests would be old and new friends coming to together for the love of ART. This was an IDEA that I came up with in MARCH 2020 right before creating the remembrance album for Jordan Danielle.

*Son of a Gun by Janet Jackson*

Once we were broken up, I understood that any attempt made by Darron Duarte Love to reconcile this marriage was simply because of MELANIN MIDAS EMPIRE. The image of an idea. The image of a concept. THE IMAGE because the show doesn’t exist and since we broke up I realized the show wouldn’t actually happen but I loved the titled so much. Just as I love JuCity Mafia so I found SOMETHING to do with it because I knew it was never going to be what it was supposed to be.

After publishing Melanin Midas Empire, I just noticed how so much talent surrounded me and it wasn’t just children. I then wanted to shed a light on local artists and heroes of Jackson, Mississippi. I revamped Melanin Midas Empire and I decided that it didn’t have to focus solely on me and my little family.

It became something bigger than what I thought it could’ve ever been. Truly…… in the wonderful words of Lizzo…… THEY DON’T KNOW I DO IT FOR THE CULTURE!!!!!! And in MELANIN MIDAS EMPIRE…… no cultures left behind.

*Almost Doesn’t Count by Brandy*

Now just as I double back around to the IDEA of this show that focuses on my little family, God blessed me with these old photos and in the photos sat the ORIGINAL photo that I created after coming up with the IDEA. Now here we are and what can be said about the picture other than people grow apart. I have found peace and happiness in being single with absolutely no desire to return to that relationship.

Doing a NEW THING and when I did that new thing. Melanin Midas Empire became my 1st novel. it helped to produce Melanin Midas Monday as well as shine a light on TriBrid Productions. The umbrella company that I so badly want to be a Fortune 500 Company one day.

Because letting go seems rather impossible for Darron Duarte Love….. he hangs on to JD MIDAS because he’d have absolutely nothing if he lets go. To start over with somebody different that does not see potential and does not uplift and help make YOUR DREAMS a reality.

It’s not easy but that’s why we pray and seek God first so that the kingdom will be given unto us. This includes the spouse. I don’t mind starting over. I know that who God sends my way is going to be the answer to my prayers.

*Wasn’t Man Enough For Me by Toni Braxton*

I’m holding out for the one that God has for me but I am dating and enjoying life because God didn’t place us here to be alone or to be lonely. At the same time, I’ve been tied down(committed) for years and really learning how to date all over again. At times it can be annoying while others, it’s extremely entertaining.

The purpose of this post is to simply say…… it’s okay to break up. It’s okay to let go. Every single day wasn’t hell with Darron Duarte Love. We shared laughs. There were good days, however, I’ve moved on and I have constantly wished him to do the same and nothing but the best on his journey as he do it.

Coming up against me as a mother to force me back into a toxic relationship though? Now I have to be this ‘monstrous bitch’ because I play no games about my children and my understanding is absolutely ZERO when you decide to fukk over MINE!

*Buy A Heart by Nicki Minaj & Meek Mill*

One picture can say a thousand words…….

Top left corner….. Dec 2014 and we’d been back together a year. Already argued and he kicked me out. I went back to my grandma for a few days and we made up. The collage of what making up looks like. Dec 2017….. Pregnant with Braxton and sitting at Maragritas eating a chicken and steak salad. This is what it looks like when you’ve forgiven him for cheating on you in the pregnancy. Smiling to keep from crying. Feb 2017…… The day he proposed at Kemistry Lounge and yet it wasn’t even real. He was joking around.Mother’s Day 2018…… At the Rez and here we are pushing through those ‘Bad Days of Marriage’Left panel……. Nov 2017 right before he’s caught cheating. Here I am forcing him to be a father to Peyton Shontell. NOLA 2014….. Our first trip as a couple and nobody enjoyed themselves because of the secret affairs everybody(except me) were havingValentine 2014….. This was supposed to be our happiest as we’d just gotten back together.Bottom panel…… Lewisville, TX and we just argued hence to inability to smile on his endMarch 2018…… only a few weeks after having Braxton Alexander and we fought a few weeks laterBottom Right Corner…… Our first pictures together EVER and him and his mammy invited the ex over hoping for a fight.Sombrero Hat….. March 3, 2017…… went to Margaritas as our reception with his parents and his ex fling Tamika. We argued that night. Thanksgiving 2017…… the day before he was caught cheating. Middle picture……. Lewisville, TX and this is what HAPPILY MARRIED consisted of.

A bunch of fake happy pictures to share on social media for HIS FAMILY to admire because mine didn’t give a fukk and could clearly see that I was not happy but they do not involve themselves in other people’s marriages and relationships and will simply watch and talk from a distance patiently waiting on the day that the relationship ENDS.

*Marriage Is Honorable*

I love who I am as a wife and mother and in that I will ALWAYS want to be married to 1 man. Just not rushing anything and most certainly taking my time while fully dating and enjoying life at a 34 year old woman should. What makes dating so hard is how so many men will listen to men like Darron Duarte Love that tell their fukk’d up version of what happened in the relationship causing men to see me as this ‘monstrous bitch’ all because he fukk’d over me and I don’t want him anymore.

How you see me and how you approach me is most certainly what you will get in return. So I felt the need to explain the plethora of ‘HAPPILY MARRIED’ pictures that apparently still exist. I deleted our pictures because I moved on and I do not need reminders of a past love while pursuing a new one.

The very reason I’m getting cover ups. Not because I tattooed his name on me. Not at all. It’s because he was the tattoo artist and he didn’t listen to better himself. He sought to do small tattoos for $20-$30 just to have money for his habits. It was never to make it an actual business or to truly practice and make himself better which is the lie he told me. I want better tattoos and best believe there’s a spot I’m saving just for you….. for you…… my THIRD HUSBAND….. My TRUUUUUUUUUUUU HUSBAND!!!!

*When Doves Cry by Prince*

No regrets. Simply stating facts. Clarity and reflection. I’m thankful for what was because of the person I became. This journey with God was never supposed to been easy. I wanted to take this time to speak life into my next relationship. The most common question of ‘WHY ARE SINGLE?’ is simple….. people grow apart.

Had Darron Duarte Love actually wanted to be with then he would’ve put the work in to make the relationship work and thrive as did I and instead his focus was money drugs, and whores. So I let him have and I’m not angry about it. His actions towards me as a mother and denying me contact with MY CHILDREN can be rather upsetting…… but God will most certainly hand that just as He handles everything else.

The grass isn’t always greener on the other side and the moment Darron Duarte Love realized that, he did indeed come running back. However……. it was too little too late. That he should’ve realized in Dec 2013 when he begged for another chance. Was it just Darron? No Doug came running back too.

My understanding is this…… the grass is the greenest wherever you water it. Not only water it but speak life into it as plants need CO2 to live while we require oxygen. A beautiful exchange to sit in your garden speaking life into it and watching your garden flourish with real unconditional love. If you take the time to do the same in your relationships with others(not just romantic) then you will indeed have wonderful positive connections with a many people.

*Dear No One by Tori Kelly*

To my future husband……. I AM SINGLE & HEALED BAE!!!!! We got a starting lineup forming BUT shiiiiiiddddddd if you can handle a baker’s dozen than I can too.

COME BUTTER THESE BUNS BAAAAEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

FYI: When choosing these colors…… it was ORIGINALLY our(Darron) wedding colors and yet we never had a wedding. It was the same blue and purple when it was Doug…….

Unfortunately when I suggested this spring green color to compliment the sky blue color that Darron had chosen…… Darron was disgusted by the color combo. That it was extremely ugly and felt like he had to see the colors together before fully committing to the color combo. I was definitely annoyed because what exactly did he see when he walked outside and looked up at the blue sky and down at the green trees and grass. Like seriously….. you see this color combo DAILY as long as you have eyes to see. I just shut up about it because I had no other color in mind. If not green then NOTHING because in that moment it was just a bunch of shit talking anyway. We weren’t at all thinking about getting married. Just talking and making plans to go nowhere. So when the relationship ended, I took MY FAVORITE COLORS and made my logo. Naturally Blue is my favorite color. Blue Topaz/Turquoise to be exact. Green has always been my second favorite color.

So no bae this color combo isn’t at all for an ex. It’s all for me and my actual wedding colors will most certainly NOT be blue & green. My living room or kitchen color scheme tho…… my she shed even…… but nahhhhhh me and bae coming up with a completely off the wall color scheme for our wedding. And yes I want a wedding because I’ve been married twice and never had one. Don’t want to hear shit about am I wanting a man or just a wedding…….

I guarantee you that I’m not spending a dime on a wedding to a man just for fancy party! I’m having a wedding tho. Come correct or don’t come at all my love.