Have You Lost Your Mind? Not another argument. Please. Raised voices. Angry faces. Nothing gained. We have been here before. My husband Jonathan and me, toe to toe, like the roosters in the painting that flared from our living room wall before we boxed up everything we own to move west.

The Enterprise we were Contemplating was Absurd. Relocation from New York City, where we had first relocated forty-five years before, to the west coast. At our age? Jonathan was seventy-six. I was about to turn eighty-five. What were we thinking?

“Have You Lost Your Mind? Why are You Doing This?” Many of our friends had come close to asking the same thing. This one didn’t bother being subtle about it. “Because it will be good for Jonathan,” I answered. Jonathan had been diagnosed with dementia, an early stage of the disease, but nonetheless an arbiter of our future life trajectory.

“What Do I Do?” After the diagnosis, I asked this of another friend who had gone through something similar with her partner. Her response was immediate and adamant. “Get help!” This particular woman is not given to overstatement. I understood that and began my search the next day.

I Found No Help in our Immediate Vicinity. Folks were caring and concerned and compassionate. I deeply appreciated that. But, no one said what I needed to hear. No one offered day-to-day, active, physical assistance. That was what I would require as Jonathan’s condition progressed.

I Explored Public Program Possibilities. I assumed there would be some form of practical relief available there, Instead, I was told we’d have to be reduced to $2500 in assets before we qualified for help. In other words, we would have to be pretty much destitute to be eligible.

 The Assets We Did Possess Were Insufficient. We would eventually need to hire home healthcare aides. We could not afford to do that very often for very long. We had fallen into the crack all of us of average means dread. The pressure stressed us both to distraction. Have You Lost Your Mind?

Then – A Miracle Happened. I consider it a miracle anyway. Another friend piped up from the opposite side of the continent. “Come out here,” she said. “I can help.” Our turn toward possibility began with those words. I will not pretend it has been an easy passage – especially for me.

New York City Became my Dream Town when I was Fifteen. That dream had not diminished in wattage since it first captured my imagination all those years past. I had lived elsewhere but was never similarly enraptured. I was a New Yorker to my core.

This was Less True for Jonathan. He envisioned the west as an opportunity to be productive again for as long as was feasible. Retirement had been a mixed bag for him. Lots of leisure, but not enough structure, not enough purpose. Not enough challenged him where we were. He wanted to move on.

Still – for Both of Us – There was the Immensity of the Thing. Uprooting from our comfortable apartment in Astoria, New York. Plopped down into a land far far away. My granddaughter has told me that saying “OMG” is as juvenile as using three exclamation points. All the same – “OMG!!!”

Many Toe-to-Toe ShoutUps Ensued. The move was off. The move was on. Our worst duster was about my motivation. I said would go only because it was good for Jonathan. He could not accept that. We were now a week short of our planned departure. Somebody’s acceptance was imperative.

For a New York Minute I Considered a Solo Sayonara. I could take off on my own into the whirl of the universe. Throw my hands up and walk away from the argument. Ignore my responsibility to fifty-three years of marriage? Others have done so, haven’t they? I could escape.

Except for One Thing. All those fifty-three years ago I had fallen in love with Jonathan. I am still singing that song. No real choice existed for me, last-minute or any time. Land far far away, here we come. . But the question persists. Have You Lost Your Mind?

Tell Your Own Mind-Loss Story. Have you ever done something someone else considered crazy? What was their argument for the insanity of your intention? What was your response? When and where did this happen? Describe your adversary. Why did this person care so much about what you might do?

What, specifically, occurred in this situation? How did you feel back then, while it was happening? How do you feel about it now? Write your story. All of it. Straight from your heart.

Tell Your Brave Leap Story. Recall actually taking this bold risk. What prompted you to do such a thing? What did you need/want to get away from? What did you hope to find elsewhere? How, specifically, did you muster the courage to go through with it? You are the hero of your life story.  Write it that way. But tell me – Have You Lost Your Mind?

You Possess Storytelling Magic. Keep on Writing whatever may occur. Alice Orr. http://www.aliceorrbooks.com

Alice Orr. Teacher. Storyteller. Former Editor and Literary Agent. Author of 15 novels, 2 novellas, a memoir, and No More Rejections: 50 Secrets to Writing a Manuscript that Sells.

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