It’s been almost a month since I asked my husband for a divorce. The drama has been intense and daily. The last three weeks have been consumed with it almost daily. He is facing some difficult challenges of his own making. I agreed to give him until the end of April to make arrangements since he paid April’s rent but he shows no real signs of plans to get out. On top of that, yesterday he shared that he would be losing his job next week. It makes me sad to see his life disintegrate around him but after trying to hold it together for him since February 2011 when he lost his job previously, I’m done feeling sorry for him. He created this situation in his life and as hard as it is to watch, I’m going to have to let things fall where they may. I did everything I could to slow the descent and prevent a catastrophe but I have my own issues to deal with.

So starting today, I’m moving on with my life. I’m going to start rebuilding the pieces and standing on my own two feet again. It’s taken almost 7 months to reach this point and an awful lot of heartache but the hardest part is almost done. The final step is getting him out so I can once again concentrate on what I need to concentrate on. I feel my focus and determination returning to me, piece by piece. It’s a slow process because I lost so much of myself in the last two years but it’s definitely happening. The first step is finding a job of some kind or some kind of income. Now if the chaos could just stay at bay long enough for me to do that, I will be successful.

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