With dead mans heart beats
I fill my head with dreams of foreverness
Never to be awoken again
Blissfully I sleep
Visions of the after life
Seem to be more pleasant than reality
For reality is a monstrous beast
Beating me at every turn
The more I fight back the more I am pushed down
Unwillingness to let go only prolongs my agony
I turn within to search for answers
But the deeper I go
The more confused I am
Do I walk away?
Do I stay?
What do I do?
Spirit walking
Across the spectrum
I lose balance
And fall on my ass
Getting up
With a bump on my head
Solidifies my inwardly pain outwardly
Floating within a cloud of smoke
Lessens the hurt
Strength and honor keeps me afloat
For that is all I have left
For my soul is abandoned