“One of the defects or deficiency of being a somewhat evolved human being in terms of emotional and practical intelligence is that I see through people. Sometimes I am wrong about them… because I read them based on their output and not their intentions…

I am impatient with slow, unintelligent and lazy people. When they are just being average human beings. I sometimes despise them living this simple and bliss life with no care in the world while I am constantly grappling with figuring out my next move or step in some life mission process I have that keeps sprouting detours, obstacle courses and problems that only delay me and might one day completed undermine my efforts and ambitions.

When it comes to friends, men, family… I have lost some of my ability to have good relations with others…
Simple put, anything or anyone that isn’t moving towards an end goal, mission or completion, annoys me to a fault and my only solution to that is to disengage and abandon it or them.

Anything that isn’t aligned to my end goal is a waste of time.
Last but not least, I loathe my indiscipline in certain areas.
Specifically weight loss, I know what I need to do, I still haven’t done it.
It creates episodes of self loathing where I am forced to reckon/recognize that I have some of the same issues, shortcomings and icks i despise in other human beings.
While they can’t write a long paragraph, book or dissertation they can commit to running five miles.
And then a part of my brain clicks, a voice says, running for them is writing for you…
They aren’t that special…

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