Crystal Evans Quotes Quotes

“In the Ghetto, life is meaningless, death is glory, and to fear people (neygah) is the beginning of wisdom. Selah”
― Crystal Evans, Jamaican Acute-Ghetto-itis: Jamaican Sociological Commentary

“A lot of times we struggle in life to find happiness, to find a spouse, to get respect, ratings because the way we see ourselves that’s not how people see us.
It is not who we are.
What we imagine ourselves to be.
We are not it.

We have to constantly do self work…

Becoming and evolving…
Because we are not our best selves…
It doesn’t matter what we tell ourselves, the world will reflect the truth back at us… sometimes the world lies… but not all the time.”
― Crystal Evans

“For future reference…
Treat me as a story teller /business woman and celebrate me as such.
But never as a person that you know very well…
Not just me.
Others too.”
― Crystal Evans, The Fairy Tale Complex II

“Dating some people is like recurring decimal. You meet them at number one (1) and some you meet them at zero (0) and it never improves and it never gets worse. Dating them is like…0.55555555555555. You never get back where you start. It don’t get worse and it doesn’t get better. You haven’t even started. You go backwards and it plateaus and stays on one level.”
― Crystal Evans, The Fairy Tale Complex II

“Dating some people is like a recurring decimal. You meet them at number one (1) and some you meet them at zero (0) and it never improves and it never gets worse. Dating them is like…0.55555555555555. You never get back where you start. It don’t get worse and it doesn’t get better. You haven’t even started. You go backwards and it plateaus and stays on one level.”
― Crystal Evans, The Fairy Tale Complex II

“I know what it feels like to unravel. I know how an unhinged state can feel like normal. . I sympathized with suicidal people because I know how the darkness can be… and depression feeds on you like bacteria… some days it’s active and other days it lays dormant in the permafrost of routine and life’s demands. I imagine the pain I feel on my worst days and then think about how painful it must have been for those who decided to end it all.”
― Crystal Evans, The Bunna Man II: Extended Edition

“One of the defects or deficiency of being a somewhat evolved human being in terms of emotional and practical intelligence is that I see through people. Sometimes I am wrong about them… because I read them based on their output and not their intentions…

I am impatient with slow, unintelligent and lazy people. When they are just being average human beings. I sometimes despise them living this simple and bliss life with no care in the world while I am constantly grappling with figuring out my next move or step in some life mission process I have that keeps sprouting detours, obstacle courses and problems that only delay me and might one day completed undermine my efforts and ambitions.

When it comes to friends, men, family… I have lost some of my ability to have good relations with others…
Simple put, anything or anyone that isn’t moving towards an end goal, mission or completion, annoys me to a fault and my only solution to that is to disengage and abandon it or them.

Anything that isn’t aligned to my end goal is a waste of time.
Last but not least, I loathe my indiscipline in certain areas.
Specifically weight loss, I know what I need to do, I still haven’t done it.
It creates episodes of self loathing where I am forced to reckon/recognize that I have some of the same issues, shortcomings and icks i despise in other human beings.
While they can’t write a long paragraph, book or dissertation they can commit to running five miles.
And then a part of my brain clicks, a voice says, running for them is writing for you…
They aren’t that special…

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― Crystal Evans, Jamaican Acute Ghetto Itis

“Me to corporate when I apply for traditional roles:
Corporate Jamaican people: You write books?
Me: Yeah. I write emails, proposals, white papers, codes, RFPs, RFQ,RFI… I study human behavior, psychology etc. I discuss, I persuade, i insist, argue, negotiate, proselytize and with 200,000 followers. I influence …Best corporate executive cannot be a writer, but the best writers can be anything.

Have you seen the thickness of one of my novels?
Then you understand how committed I am to any process with no surety that it will work out in my favour.
The ability to do boring, tedious, repetitive tasks without supervision or direction for long periods of time with no immediate reward…

Works likes charm every time.”
― Crystal Evans, Legal Choppings : 100 Business Ideas for Jamaicans

“The odds are never in my favour and that’s my source code. I used to say cheat code. But not anymore.”
― Crystal Evans, The Country Gyal Journal

“No contact is not for the other person. It’s for you. It’s a form of discipline, character development and test of resilience… ♥️♥️♥️ I’ve done it more than times than i would want to… each time me come out emotionally stronger. It’s crazy… it’s liberating actually ”
― Crystal Evans, The Bunna Man Trilogy

“Nah. I think we have ran our course.
Yeah. Am not feeling this anymore.
I don’t have these type of relationships with people. Not even my friends.
All my relationships are holistic.
I don’t keep people in my circle weh can’t even wish me happy birthday or congratulate me on anything.
It’s demeaning, it’s devaluing, its unfeeling and cruel it’s has to be deliberate. Because I’ve never heard anything good from you to me.
I don’t live like that with people and I am forced to live like that with you in order to retain my dignity. I don’t like it. I don’t like not being myself just so I can keep score with you.
I don’t want to pretend indifference after either.

In the past I held on to a cobweb.
Now am holding on to nothing.
The other men are a foil for you.
They just show me that I really settled for nothing with you and got less than nothing.
I am frankly embarrassed and ashamed of myself for choosing you.
I don’t wan’t to feel like that anymore.
I have never liked the way I feel when I am with you.

I’ve met better men, richer men. more handsome men that don’t treat me this way.
I’ve lost all my feelings for you.
There is nothing left.
Nothing.”
― Crystal Evans, The Bunna Man II: Extended Edition

“Him: Sound like you monkey branch a lot
Me: Nah.
Me: I am not a regular monkey…. Me is homo erectus ”
― Crystal Evans, 100 Dating Tips for Jamaican Women