Ashwin

“Well, since I’d been feeling so depressed, I thought I’d try looking at the world upside down. But turns out, it’s exactly the same.”
― Ryūnosuke Akutagawa, Kappa

“I feel like I’ve … lost control of myself, or maybe I never had it all, and
I’m just looking for something that isn’t there. It’s like I just do things
mindlessly and for no real reason. I feel like everything is just pointless and
in disarray, but I just keep going, keep striving, keep doing things. It’s like a
vague sense of hope that something will come along and make me feel
connected and whole, but nothing ever comes, and the vague hope turns
into a vaguer sense of self and life. I don’t even really know who I am or
what I am. I don’t know my own thoughts from the worlds, and I don’t
know what’s real in the world anymore.”
― Robert Pantano, Millions of Little Threads

“Whole months have passed during which I haven’t lived, but have merely endured, … marooned in an inner stagnation of thinking and feeling.”
― Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

“It may be that the reason we love nature is because it expresses neither jealousy nor hatred toward us.”
― Ryūnosuke Akutagawa, Kappa