Katherine

“Vanish.
Pass into nothingness: the Keats line that frightened her.
Fade as the blue nights fade, go as the brightness goes.
Go back into the blue.
I myself placed her ashes in the wall.
I myself saw the cathedral doors locked at six.
I know what it is I am now experiencing.
I know what the frailty is, I know what the fear is.
The fear is not for what is lost.
What is lost is already in the wall.
What is lost is already behind the locked doors.
The fear is for what is still to be lost.
You may see nothing still to be lost.
Yet there is no day in her life on which I do not see her.”
― Joan Didion, Blue Nights

“You’ll smile because I’m teaching you things about yourself you didn’t
know, and I’ll smile because you’ve been doing that to me for years.”
― Jessica Urlichs, My After All: Poetry & Prose for Mothers

“Grammar is a piano I play by ear.”
― Joan Didion, Joan Didion: Essays & Conversations

“When I look at my old pictures, all I can see is what I used to be but am no longer. I think: What I can see is what I am not.”
― Aleksandar Hemon, The Lazarus Project