sonya

“You know, a woman can torture a man with her cruelty and mockery without feeling the slightest twinge of conscience, because every time she looks at you she thinks to herself: “Now I’m going to torment him to death, but I will make it up to him later with my love …”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Idiot

“A new feeling, melancholy and desolate, oppressed his heart; all at once he had become aware that at that moment, and for some time past, he had not been saying what he ought to have been saying, not doing what he should have been doing, and that these cards he held in his hands and had been so pleased about, could avail nothing, nothing at all now.”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Idiot

“Stavrogin, why am I condemned to believe in you for all eternity? Could I really have spoken as I did with anyone else? I am a chaste man, but I was not afraid of my nakedness, because I was speaking with Stavrogin. I was not afraid to caricature a great idea with my touch, because Stavrogin was listening to me. Do you think I won’t kiss your footprints when you’ve left?”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, Demons

“I knew for a fact that I had consumption and was incurable. I didn’t deceive myself and I understood the position clearly. But the clearer it became to me, the more feverishly I longed to live; I clung to life and wanted to live, come what may.”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Idiot