Tatania

“Pada saat kita bertemu lagi nanti, kalau perasaanmu masih belum berubah, kalau kau masih merasa sulit percaya padaku, kalau kau tidak mau melihatku lagi, tidak mau berurusan denganku lagi, kau hanya perlu mengatakannya dan aku akan menuruti apapun yg kau katakan.” (Spring in London)”
― Ilana Tan

“What do you love more?” she teased. “My hair or my heart?” “Why give me only two choices? Don’t leave out your legs, your laugh, the way you bite your lip when you’re thinking, the feel of your breath on my face, the sound of your voice in the morning, the way you taste, the three freckles on your nose, the fan of your eyelashes, the caring spirit, the determined soul — so why stop at your hair and your heart? How do you expect me to choose? When what I love the most about you — is you.”
― Rachel Van Dyken, Ruin

“Kurasa aku sudah terbiasa selalu melihatmu, jadi kalau kau tidak ada, aku merasa agak aneh. Seolah-olah ada sesuatu yang... salah.”
― Ilana Tan, Spring in London

“God…” I choked on the word. “I know we haven’t talked much in the past few years. Hell, I told you I hated you when Tye took his own life.” I cursed again and pinched the bridge of my nose. “I don’t even care about myself anymore, just promise me she’ll be okay. If I don’t make it… if you take me, just let Kiersten be okay. She can’t go down that road — I don’t care if you have to punish me, God. If she’s going to suffer, give me her pain instead. If her heart’s going to break, break mine for hers. Please, God… please.”
― Rachel Van Dyken, Ruin