Tuba

“You said: “I’ll go to another country, go to another shore,
find another city better than this one.
Whatever I try to do is fated to turn out wrong
and my heart lies buried as though it were something dead.
How long can I let my mind moulder in this place?
Wherever I turn, wherever I happen to look,
I see the black ruins of my life, here,
where I’ve spent so many years, wasted them, destroyed them totally.”

You won’t find a new country, won’t find another shore.
This city will always pursue you. You will walk
the same streets, grow old in the same neighborhoods,
will turn gray in these same houses.
You will always end up in this city. Don’t hope for things elsewhere:
there is no ship for you, there is no road.
As you’ve wasted your life here, in this small corner,
you’ve destroyed it everywhere else in the world.”
― C.P. Cavafy

“I am listening to Istanbul with my eyes closed
The drunkenness of old times
In the wooden seaside villa with its deserted boat house
The roaring Southwestern wind is trapped,
My thoughts are trapped.

I am listening to Istanbul with my eyes closed
A bird is flying around your skirt
I know if your forehead is hot or cold
Or your lips are wet or dry;
Or is a white moon is rising above the hazelnut tree
My heart's fluttering tells me
I am listening to Istanbul with my eyes closed”
― Orhan Veli Kanık, Bütün Şiirleri

“Beni bir gün unutacaksan, bir gün bırakıp gideceksen, boşuna yorma derdi; boş yere mağaramdan çıkarma beni. Alışkanlıklarımı özellikle yalnızlığa alışkanlığımı kaybettirme boşuna. Tedirgin etme beni. Bu sefer geride bir şey bırakmadım. Tasımı tarağımı topladım geldim. Neyim var neyim yoksa ortaya döktüm. Beni bırakırsan sudan çıkmış balığa dönerim. Bir kere çavuş olduktan sonra bir daha amelelik yapamayan zavallı köylüye dönerim. Beni uyandır.”
― Oğuz Atay, Tutunamayanlar

“The less I needed, the better I felt.”
― Charles Bukowski