Fai Ahmed

“What does it remember? Itself, death as memory. An immense
memory in which one dies.
First to forget. To remember only where one remembers nothing.
To forget: to remember everything as though by way of forgetting. There is
a profoundly forgotten point from which every memory radiates. Everything is exalted in memory from something which is forgotten, an infinitesimal detail, a minuscule fissure into which it passes in its entirety.”
― Maurice Blanchot, The Last Man

“واحة من الرعب وسط صحراء من الضجر.”
― Charles Baudelaire

“Like a snake, my heart
has shed its skin.
I hold it here in my hand,
full of honey and wounds.

- New Heart”
― Federico García Lorca

“I read a lot. I listen a lot. I think a lot. But so little remains. The books I read, their plots, their protagonists fade. The university lectures that I had found pretty impressive on first hearing, have faded away. Now I am listening to one on Pirandello. Names of people, books, cities. They are already fading away. Even the titles of films I’ve seen recently — they have already faded. Authors of thousands of books I’ve read... All that remains are the colours of their bindings, their covers. I don’t remember much about Beauty and the Beast, but I remember clearly, vividly the hear of the day as we were crossing the Rhine bridge, to see the film. Everything that I see, or red, or listen to, connects, translates into moods, bits of surroundings, colors. No, I am not a novelist. No precision of observation, detail. With me, everything is mood, mood, or else —simply nothingness.”
― Jonas Mekas, I Had Nowhere to Go