Sweet

“I want to hear it so many times that I don't forget the sound of it…”
― N.M. Lombardi, Chance

“Don't leave." He turned his eyes up, half-focused, as she stood. "I still have to say things to you.”
― N.M. Lombardi, Chance

“في هذي الدنيا كلنا سيلتقي بشخص لا تنساه الذاكرة
و العجيب أنه لن يكون لنا
ستعجب به .. ستكون به جميع المواصفات التي قد نقشها قلبك لعقلك
سيكون أنت في مكان آخر
ستعيش معه حياة مختلفة .. لن تقدر أن تقترب و لا أن تبتعد
هو مرة حبيبا و مرة صديقا و مرة أخرى غريبا
و تمضي الأيام .. تتمنى أن تجد سببا لتكرهه .. و لن تجد
تخشى التعلّق به .. و أنت فعلت حقا
أحيانا ستظنه لك ..
لكنك ستقبض على روحك بتنهيدة صامتة و تهمس " هو ليس لي”
― أحمد جابر, رحلة العشرين عاماً

“As he soars, he thinks, suddenly, of Dr. Kashen. Or not of Dr. Kashen, necessarily, but the question he had asked him when he was applying to be his advisee: What's your favorite axiom? (The nerd pickup line, CM had once called it.)

"The axiom of equality," he'd said, and Kashen had nodded, approvingly. "That's a good one," he'd said.

The axiom of equality states that x always equals x: it assumes that if you have a conceptual thing named x, that it must always be equivalent to itself, that it has a uniqueness about it, that it is in possession of something so irreducible that we must assume it is absolutely, unchangeably equivalent to itself for all time, that its very elementalness can never be altered. But it is impossible to prove. Always, absolutes, nevers: these are the words, as much as numbers, that make up the world of mathematics. Not everyone liked the axiom of equality––Dr. Li had once called it coy and twee, a fan dance of an axiom––but he had always appreciated how elusive it was, how the beauty of the equation itself would always be frustrated by the attempts to prove it. I was the kind of axiom that could drive you mad, that could consume you, that could easily become an entire life.

But now he knows for certain how true the axiom is, because he himself––his very life––has proven it. The person I was will always be the person I am, he realizes. The context may have changed: he may be in this apartment, and he may have a job that he enjoys and that pays him well, and he may have parents and friends he loves. He may be respected; in court, he may even be feared. But fundamentally, he is the same person, a person who inspires disgust, a person meant to be hated. And in that microsecond that he finds himself suspended in the air, between ecstasy of being aloft and the anticipation of his landing, which he knows will be terrible, he knows that x will always equal x, no matter what he does, or how many years he moves away from the monastery, from Brother Luke, no matter how much he earns or how hard he tries to forget. It is the last thing he thinks as his shoulder cracks down upon the concrete, and the world, for an instant, jerks blessedly away from beneath him: x = x, he thinks. x = x, x = x.”
― Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life