Beatrice

“That is what abuse is:
knowing you are
going to get salt
but still hoping for sugar
for nineteen years.”
― Amanda Lovelace, The Princess Saves Herself in This One

“When you grow up, who you were as a teenage either takes on a mythical importance or it's completely laughable. I wanted to be the kind of person who wiped those years away; instead, I feared, they defined me.”
― Julie Buntin, Marlena

“Oh, the things we invent when we are scared
and want to be rescued.”
― Richard Siken, Crush

“Romantic obsession is my first language. I live in a world of fantasies, infatuations and love poems. Sometimes I wonder if the yearning I’ve felt for others was more of a yearning for yearning itself. I’ve pined insatiably and repeatedly: for strangers, new lovers, unrequited flames. While the subjects changed, that feeling always remained. Perhaps, then, I have not been so infatuated with the people themselves, but with the act of longing.

from “Life without Longing,” The New York Times (9 February 2019)”
― Melissa Broder