Becky :)!

“I'm not sure I definitely don't want children, I'm just not sure I definitely do want children, and I think that anything short of a deep desire in your mind, body, and soul to have one is not a good enough reason to do it.”
― Hazel Hayes, Out of Love

“We were the sum of the routines we'd built around eachother.”
― Naoise Dolan, Exciting Times

“We are both wounded in our own way and, like a pair of tectonic plates shifting over time, our wounds will gradually grate against one another’s, causing damage at a glacial pace. Neither one of us will notice until it’s too late.”
― Hazel Hayes, Out of Love

“My father's brand of loud, violent chaos was replaced by something quiter and more insidious; a mother who meant well, who tried to give me everything, but failed to see that everything was too much. Boundaries fell away, the lines between parent and child blurred, and along with all her love and care and sacrifice I also got her fear and dread and a false belief that I was somehow responsible for fixing it all. And so what should have been a temporary measure to cope in a crisis became my way of dealing with everyday life - stay on high alert, push your feelings down and always have a plan. To this day, I have a faulty security system running constantly in the background, sounding the alarm and sending me into fight or flight over every perceived threat. I live life with a proverbial tiger in the room, but I can somehow withstands its presence as long as everything else is in order.”
― Hazel Hayes, Out of Love