Ibrahim gad

“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.”
― David Foster Wallace

“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”
― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

“I don't want to repeat my innocence. I want the pleasure of losing it again.”
― F. Scott Fitzgerald, This Side of Paradise

“أحكي للعالم أحكي له
عن بيتٍ كَسروا قِنديله
عن فأسٍ قتلت زنبقةً
وحريقٍ أودى بجديلة..

أحكي عن شاةٍ لم تُحلب
عن عَجنةِ أُمّ ما خُبزت
عن سقفٍ طينيّ أعشب
أحكي للعالم أحكي له..

يا بنتَ الجارِ المنسيّة
الدُّمية عندي محميّة
الدُّمية عندي فَتعالي
في باصِ الرّيح الشرقيّة..

حنّا لا أذكرُ قَسماتك
لكني أشقى كي أذكر
في قلبي خَفقةُ خطواتك
عصفورٌ يَدرج أو يكبر..

أحكي للعالم أحكي له
عن بيتٍ كَسروا قِنديله
عن فأسٍ قتلت زنبقةً
وحريقٍ أودى بجديلة..

كُنّا ما أجملَ ما كُنّا
يا بنتَ الجارِ ويا حنّا
كنّا فلماذا أعيننا
صارت بالغربة مجبولة
ولماذا صارت أيدينا
بحبالِ اللعنة مجدولة..”
― سميح القاسم