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“Nah. I think we have ran our course.
Yeah. Am not feeling this anymore.
I don’t have these type of relationships with people. Not even my friends.
All my relationships are holistic.
I don’t keep people in my circle weh can’t even wish me happy birthday or congratulate me on anything.
It’s demeaning, it’s devaluing, its unfeeling and cruel it’s has to be deliberate. Because I’ve never heard anything good from you to me.
I don’t live like that with people and I am forced to live like that with you in order to retain my dignity. I don’t like it. I don’t like not being myself just so I can keep score with you.
I don’t want to pretend indifference after either.

In the past I held on to a cobweb.
Now am holding on to nothing.
The other men are a foil for you.
They just show me that I really settled for nothing with you and got less than nothing.
I am frankly embarrassed and ashamed of myself for choosing you.
I don’t wan’t to feel like that anymore.
I have never liked the way I feel when I am with you.

I’ve met better men, richer men. more handsome men that don’t treat me this way.
I’ve lost all my feelings for you.
There is nothing left.
Nothing.”
― Crystal Evans, The Bunna Man II: Extended Edition