Status Updates From The Chromatic Fantasy

Waaaaayyyy more meme-y and unfinished feeling than I expected

Oh my god

☀️♥️: I want to be happy ! !
I want to love and be loved ! !
I want to feel safe ! !
I want to be someone who didn’t deserve it ! !
I want my life and my body and my soul ! !
I want control of who I am ! !
I want you to stop touching me ! !
I want you to leave me alone ! !

:,) Iykyk

☀️♥️: It’s like... being burnt and taken and swallowed. And dying very quickly. Very fast. Evaporating. You barely know what's happening
and I wanted it so badly but.. It was so good at first but I think something has happened to me. the last few times, I couldn’t eat for days after.
Thinking about it makes me sick. I’m stupid-

The art in this is exquisitely symbolic ❤️‍🩹

🌘🌀: I don’t know what I’m doing, really. I was just trying to survive and I ended up like this.

I’ve been convinced that I will die very soon. I can’t shake the feeling. But it’s been years so “soon” is taking a rather long time, I guess

It’s so clarifying to grow up and learn this feeling is correlated with childhood trauma

I’m obsessed with the dialogue in this book

☀️♥️: I don’t believe in God, Santa, or even Captain Crunch

🌘🌀: The Michelin Man is 100% real though

☀️♥️: Yeah he’s real I’ve seen him

🌘🌀: I saw him driving on the I-90

☀️♥️: He’s butch as hell

🌘🌀: Yeah he’s real taught me how to fuck and drive

☀️♥️: Separately?

🌘🌀: No, he’s a great multitasker