Status Updates From The Diaries of Sophia Tolstoy

this should come with a content warning cause i'm so upset rn

Momentarily shelved this book. The entries were starting to veer off to topics I didn’t care about eg her estate activities, meeting the Tsar and home schooling. Really loved her entries on the challenges in her marriage; her unmet expectations in the marriage and/or partnership; challenges of being both a wife and a mother and her thoughts on her moral standing on issues.

Sophia's thoughts sometimes appear to be taken out of my own conscience. Her words, emotions, state of mind and inner critic come off as mirror of what my mindset was when I was in a relationship. It's like holding a mirror in front of me and seeing the ugly, the self doubts, the critics, the self hate and the need to be heard and seen.
I wish I could reach out through the pages and give her a hug and assure her.