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IM SO SAT. i know iakov & zahara are abt to be buzzy as fuck, idk if they can take theo&zachs spot in my heart but let’s find out, i love a good brothers bsf

they have my whole heart😭😭😭😭 i love them SO much theyre so precious to me. my sweet sad babies🥹🥹🤍

“Marry me, Iakov Kavinski,” she replies with a lazy smile. “Go on. I dare you.”
“I would never dare to disobey you, Zahara Blackwood.”
“Because I’m your cruel mistress?”
“Because you’re the love of my fucking life.”

ugh i adore them

“She turns to look at me in surprise. “What do you mean? No occasion. I made them because I thought they would make you happy.”

You make me happy, I want to tell her. My beautiful rose, my thorny saviour. You make me happy because you’re the place where I feel most safe and most loved. And one day, I’m going to marry you.

🥹🥹🥹💖💖

“You’re not my bodyguard, Iakov.”
“What am I, then?”
I try to keep my voice light and my tone carefree. “You could just be my boyfriend—if you wanted.”
“A thug like me?” he asks, tangling his fingers in my hair. “You can do better.”
“Not in a lifetime,” I tell him, and then I shut him up with a kiss.

🥹🥹🥹

And then I hear Zahara’s voice.You have to live. I command it. Live until I allow you to die.
“Yes, Kolyuchka,” I whisper.

😭😭🥹

He’s not Lancelot and I’m not a lady from a chivalric romance. And I’m sick of being a damsel in distress.
I’m Zahara Blackwood, and I’m one thorny fucking rose.

UGH I LOVE HER

“Everybody dies, Kolyuchka.”
“Not you. You have to live. I command it.”
“I can’t live forever.”
“Then live until I allow you to die.”
He watches me in silence for a long time. Then he drops to his knees, startling me, and he bows his head in front of me, resting his forehead against my thighs. “Until you allow me to die, then. I swear it.”
🥹🥹❤️

And then, in the tiniest voice, with her lips pressed against my skin, Zahara mumbles, “I don’t know that I hate you as much as I do. I think maybe I don’t hate you at all.”

🥹🥹

“I hate you. I hate you. You make me feel complete.”
“You make me come apart,” I answer against her ear. My voice comes out just as low and broken as hers. “I love you. I love you.”

my heart😭😭

“And the thorns?” she asks breathlessly.
I laugh, a rough, scratchy sound. “You, Zahara. All you. Every last thorn.”
“Because I’ve hurt you so much?” Her voice breaks.
“Because I can’t get you out of my skin.”

😭😭😭😭

“Zahara Blackwood kisses me, and everything is gold. I’ve been so afraid that touching her would taint her, that the gold of her would turn dull and black where I held her. I was wrong. She’s the one transforming me, turning me gold in all the places she touches me.”

ugh i love them😭😭😭

“You’re so beautiful it hurts to look at you. But I don’t love you because you’re beautiful. I love you because you’re thorny, smart, strong. I love all those things. I wish you loved those things too.”

😭😭🤍

“If you ever go near her again, I’ll kill you with these two hands.” His voice is hard and bleak. “I’ll kill you myself, and I won’t make it nice or clean. I’ll make it a dirty death, a vermin’s death. It’s what you deserve, you cunt. When you crawl home and get on your knees to thank god for being alive, it’s Zahara Blackwood you should thank.”

“Those big brown eyes like an orphan fawn, like a cartoon doe with a murdered family. Her eyes were the same colour as her brother’s, but where Zach’s gaze was all confidence and self-certainty, his little sister’s was a drowning pool of sadness and unmet want.”

orphan fawn😭😭😭

My voice leaves my throat before I’m even aware I’m speaking. “Oh, absolutely fucking not.”
“Long time no see, Kolyuchka.”

HEHEHEHEHE

Wasn’t that my father’s favourite saying, after all? Being good is great—being best is better.

I was never the best, and then I stopped even being good. I just became nothing.

fuck i love her😭😭💔💔💔

“You don’t fuck for fun, Kolyuchka. You fuck to self-harm.”

ouchhhh

“And I dream of a girl who’s nothing at all like my sister, a delicate girl with long curls and sad brown eyes and a shining dress. The only good dream I ever have, the girl in gold, but every time I try to touch her, she vanishes like mist.”

i already know im gonna love them SO much

“My brother was born clever. I was born desperate to keep up with him.”

zahara i see u😭😭😭