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ohmyfuck i love them sm

“You make me happy, I want to tell her. My beautiful rose, my thorny saviour. You make me happy because you’re the place where I feel most safe and most loved.And one day, I’m going to marry you.”

“I have a small part-time job at a boxing gym where I train, teaching some kids’ classes. It doesn’t pay a lot, but thanks to Anton that’s not a problem. It does give me a sense of purpose though, and it turns out I have a bit of an affinity for working with troubled teenage boys who use violence as an outlet.”

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“Because now, my family is Zach and Theo and Christmases spent in their apartment in Oxford. My family is Lord and Lady Blackwood having me at their house during holidays. My family is Anaïs and Sev, Château Montcroix or summer days spent in their flat in Japan. Anaïs sitting on the floor painting with Sev watching her like she’s the most beautiful thing in the world while I play video games with Noël.”

“I still wear my hair buzzed short, I still wear black. I have a few new tattoos; a bullet on my hand, Anton’s name, and a crimson rose right over my heart.”

a crimson rose 😭🥹😭🥹

“And then I blurt out, “I love him, I really love him. I hope that’s alright.”

“There’s nobody else in the world I would want you to love more than him,” Zach says. He speaks so solemnly it makes my breath catch. “And there’s nobody in the world I would trust more with your heart than him.”

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sevanaïs 🥹🥹🥹 i miss them

“I love her,” Iakov says solemnly.

I meet Iakov’s gaze across the room, and he’s smiling.He should smile more often. Because his smile makes his eyes crinkle and a deep dimple appear in one cheek and it makes him look youthful and innocent and drop-dead gorgeous. “

“I love you too, I mouth”

“But there’s something different too. A strength I never saw in myself before. And something light and fresh, like a ray of light shining deep in my gaze. Something like hope.”

“Of course I love you!” she says, pulling away, a fierce frown on her face. Determination burns in her eyes like a beacon summoning an army. “I love you so much I wish I could lock you inside my heart and keep you there forever. I love you, Iakov Kavinski. I’m sorry I was always too proud to admit it. I would do anything for you.”

“Yes, you’ve been thorny, and you’ve scratched me. You’ve scratched hard, Kolyuchka, but you’ve never hurt me.” I swipe my thumb across her lips, wiping away the tears. “I don’t think you even really wanted to hurt me. Probably because you love me or something.”

“I like your thorns, though. And roses without thorns are weaker. They die faster.”
“You’re just saying that,” she says with a huff of tearful laughter.
“No. It’s true. Look it up.”
“You’re a botanist now?”
“I have to be. My girl loves plants.”

“Holodnyy vovk sylʹnishyy za sytu sobaku.”
“A hungry wolf is stronger than a satisfied dog.”

they’re so beauty & the beast

“He smells like sweat and smoke and blood. He lies utterly still, and I tighten my arms, holding him as tight as I can, holding him like I’m trying to engulf him into my ribcage and swallow him in my very heart.I hold him like I can never let go of him ever again.”

“I turn away from the dead woman’s reaching fingers and see Zahara Blackwood haloed with gold, haloed with light. The Blackwood siblings are made from angelic stock. And Zahara, it would seem, is my angel of death.”

“Your revenge, Yasha. Your revenge, my gun.”

I swallow hard. Tears run freely down my face.

“You’re a good kid,” Anton says. “I would have been proud to be your father. Let’s end this.”

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“You fucking broke him,” Anton replies. “You made him into an animal. A dog who lives in a hole, who believes he’s not good for anything but dying. That’s not a man, Pavel. That’s a fucking tragedy.”

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“I’m here. My Zahara, my darling, my love. You’re alright, you’re safe. I’m here, and everything’s going to be alright. I’m so sorry, my darling girl. I’m here. I’m here.”

And my father, who’s here somehow, who’s here like I’m dreaming him up, whose solemn face is alive with sorrow and relief, wraps himself around me, and holds me tight, and cradles my head like I’m a child as I burst into tears against his chest.

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zahara my poor girl 😭😭😭

AHHH I KNEW IT always the fuckass professor 😭😭😭

“Before she could even get a new watercolour set.”

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“All that to keep Lena safe.But I failed the mission before it ever began. I didn’t keep Lena safe.I couldn’t keep her safe, and she was the first person I ever swore to myself I would protect. So why do I think I can keep Zahara safe? Why did I ever allow myself to believe I was any use to anyone, that I was anything more than a rabid, mindless beast, good for nothing but violence and death?”

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lena 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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im so fucking scared
can we pretend the book ends here thanks

“Everybody dies, Kolyuchka.”
“Not you. You have to live. I command it.”
“I can’t live forever.”
“Then live until I allow you to die.”

Then he drops to his knees, startling me, and he bows his head in front of me, resting his forehead against my thighs. “Until you allow me to die, then. I swear it.”

“But I like him in my bed. I like the solidity of his body, the heat it exudes. I like it when he sleeps on his side and I curl up gingerly against his back with one arm around his waist and my forehead pressed to the knife tattoo on his back. I like how I feel when he’s in my bed, like it’s okay to sleep because I’m finally safe.”

“And I swear to myself to make him smile and laugh. I’ve always been so obsessed with being loved, being happy. None of it has even been as important as this. Making sure Iakov is loved, making sure Iakov is happy.”

“I make a vow to love every part of him that’s been hurt, to place a hundred kisses over every place that’s received a bruise or a cut. I swear to myself to lavish so much love upon Iakov Kavinski that he won’t know what to do with it.”