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‘And then comes—real anguish—where is the woman you love? Did she ever exist as you remember her? But that is another story. Not your story. Even in the most intense moment I couldn’t lose the sense of my own hard being—my love was borrowed from some other place—ls that why, like so many other men from other countries you know all too well—is that why he refuses to listen to the words that might destroy his faith?’

‘Salmones: a way of differentiating them from those exiles who could not go back home—a way of reminding them of the clear, turbulent, cascading rivers of their homeland, so they wouldn’t forget they were destined to return to their place of birth to hatch new life like salmon do. You told yourself that here was a story lived by people from a country such as your own, far away—with a past nobody seems to remember.’

‘The world’s never been in worse shape—people became more vile—I had dreamt of a world of wonders to greet you—without men exploiting other men—& yet there you were. So I lost my bet that the world would be a better place, on the other hand I had won my personal bet—your presence was in defiance of the worst odds—statistics that proclaimed that we had no chance whatsoever of finding each other—And that wasn’t all—’

‘You must know people who are good at imitating voices. Well, I happen to be good at imitating—writing. I was imitating people’s deepest emotions when they sat down to write something. Their soul. I told you that privacy in a world like ours is an illusion, Barbara. Or do you think—they respect privacy? It is not easy to be responsible for their fate—yet be unable to anticipate & stop whatever inevitably awaits them’

‘Death repeats itself through words—We have to deny a language to death—Venus de Milo: what that torso shows & promises, what it knows & cannot obtain—thousands of years and yet ready as then to make love, ready to make love in spite of time’s mutilations—Private life is an illusion in our world, Barbara. When you can torture one person, private life ends for everybody else—Context is ninety percent verisimilitude.’

"و هنالك لحظاتٌ في التاريخ يجب الدفاع فيها عن الكرامة و لحظاتٌ أخرى يجب حماية النفس فيها و خداع المتجبرين"