Status Updates From A Kingdom by the Sea (The H...

and of course they both keep choosing eachother and ryan will never grasp how madly in love with brendon he is and their life together will be great

also when they slept together back in rome and brendon was the instigator and ry said what are you doing and it's a parallel to when ryan kissed brendon and it's soooo full circle but now they're happy <3

and ryan finally has a home now <3

and brendon came home from the party early cause he wanted to be in their house, their first new year together

'you think that kind of thing means something?'
they're so cuteee, i'm screaming

+there's a whole chapter on brendon cause meeting him changed his life +sisky asks if he remembers when they first met +ry smiles to himself answering the question indirectly 3 <3

+brend looks gorgeous +nothing works without him +thinking about the fact his side's first album probably has tons of songs about ry

+gabe is better now after going to rehab +ryan takes home sisky's book cause he brought a dozen copies

IVE GOT THIS STUPID FEELING THAT IF I COME IN, I'LL NEVER LEAVE AND BRENDON WAS COUNTING ON THAT

AND BRENDON IS OFFERING EVERYTHING AND RYAN STEPS OVER THE THRESHOLD AND BEGINS TO SMILEEE :') :'(

okay his side album that's ryan brendon spencer and jon ...

ryan looks sad and alone in the pic on the cover of sisky's book,, well it is called alienation the life of ryan ross after all ...

brendon was crying and suddenly .. suddenly .. RYAN'S AWAKE HE'S AWAKE and he gets off of the stage and finds brendon

and he says WHAT IF . what if he will most likely fuck it up be he might not cause they've never really tried!! he wants to try

HOME IS PEOPLE AND AFTER SO MUCH WAR HE NOW EVENLY BREATHES AGAINST MY SKIN

YAYYYYYYYY AND THEY KEEP SMILING AT EACHOTHER AND CHICAGO'S NOT THE SAME AAAAAH

and brendon is ready now and ryan imagines it for a ssplit second and it's be everything !! but no . and they'd be so good even though they wouldn't be perfect and ry is like but what about dallon and brendon is like who and he's so charming

and brendon will wait for ryan to change his mind and his love for ry gives him strength walking away and i-

brendon realised he loved ryan when ryan tried to break up with him at pioneer park and he realised since he left home he kept moving and couldnt lose anything but he didn't wanna lose ryan and he smiles at brendon like he loves him and he can't a guy lie when his heart was breaking and ryan says that's all he does

he thought ryan only wanted him cause he couldn't have him but no it's because he truly loves him

dallon is quitting the band. i wonder why.

and ryan is depressed and sisky wants the two of them to be together and brendon asked what ryan said abt him and sisky didn't say and ryan asks sisky to stay out of it and ryan tells sisky he's loved and that he has a home with him and home isn't a place but it's people and we're all crying and then they get churros

and brendon tried writing ryan a love letter

of course he fucking loved him back then of course and ryan is like i can't believe it i've killed myself over this and you loved me the whole fucking time

ryan crashed the bus cause it was a primitive response to loss from a melodramatic artist in love and jurgen is like okay bestie im trying drive idc about your gay shit

bren says it's different now ryan say it's not we're already tearing eachother apart. ugh 3

'i want you. ryan, fucking hell' !! 'fuck, you're all i think about' 3

ryan is a bitch saying if i knew a round of sex would make you this clingy and brendon is like stfu we're not playing that game that shit won't work anymore and ryan is like ughhhh i dont wanna break us and loose you forever

and brendon says he loves him and ryan can't take it especially when he admits he did love him in ny

bren finally found ryan +ry is like sorry about ian quitting the band and bren is like WDYM WHY DID YOU FUCKING LEAVE ME RYAN

+sisky is like yeah ik brendon's losing his shit its not about ian quitting the band its about you and ryan is like ugh and im crying

and ryan is like well i left cause the tour is over soon i'll go back to obscurity and we never have to see eachother again
and brendon is like NEVER stfu

he's quit bands because of brendon,
he's said goodbye and moved to the middle of nowhere because of brendon
he's crashed buses because of brendon he's not being overdramatic but RYAN ugh you are such a drama queen you're not gunna fuck it up

'i should have stayed in machias. i see that now' oh stfu
meanwhile brendon is telling literally everyone that he's looking for ryan and this is hard to read

brendon saying it's not meaningless of course it's not ryan you-

ryan called himself a gay man, he said gay men carry around lube . ryan in over the tracks would never

nonsense that no one else ever needs to hear

'disturb him no longer' stop shut the fuck up

'his taste, his laugh, his smile' RYAAAAN

of course the sex was good spencer smh .
he wouldn't survive losing him again so he doesn't even wanna try 3

i have one chapter left and the beginning is sooooooooo painful but the end -

and ryan says what are you doing and its a fucking parallel to the first time he kissed bren except this time he's the one who's shocked and -

brendon says 'how many times can i have the urge to kiss you and not act on it and ryan is like real and then oh boy some more pain before they finally finally get back together but ive updated my thoughts now yay i may finish reading this tomorrow :0

and brendon and ryan are smiling at eachother during the show and he doesn't stage gay w dallon and they're so happy and ryan is thriving and it's natural that spencer is there

and brendon takes ryan's jacket and ryan says it won't fit him it's tailored and spencer is like yup you're gay and ryan doesn't even say anything back and brendon is like mm of course im enjoying this jacket it smells like you

brendon says ryan is comfy and ryan says im glad and sisky and spencer saw them and spencer asks if theyre back together and ryan says no and spencers well you act like you're together and he does too and brendon says morning to ryan like he really means it and ryan almost goes to kiss him and thinks brendon wouldn't blink twice if he did but he doesn't and im still screaming

ryan is here know and brendon says he knows and that he missed him so much and ryan says he missed him too and then they fucking sit there holding hands all night but end up falling alseep and ryan feels super rested even tho he's kinda sore from sleeping in a weird position but sleeping next to brendon felt natural and he was at peace and slept well and im not okay-

this book is truly something else

brendon wanted to call ryan and make up and ryan is like omg and brendon was mad he went to montreal to check up on him but he didnt get the chance to check up on him and ryan stayed away cause he thought bren hated him but he didnt and bren apologises for everything he did to ry and this fucking conversation

and ryan says he survived which is almost a lie but doesnt want bren to feel bad JDSDVJGD

brendon is looking back on the time ryan got arrested and threatend to quit the band and ry is like those weren't good times and brendon is like i think they were and yes i agree with him so hard those times were great compared to what happens next

and then bren opens up about how he couldn't handle the fact shane slept with ryan he was jealous and shocked shane would cheat on him

bren is like sorry for coming onto you last night + ry is like no worries you didn't +bren is like trust me i was . oh boy .

+bob is arrested +brendon asks if ry has any space in machias +oh my god. but nope spencer the drummer to the rescue yayay i love spencer sm

+mike tells everyone to go to sleep except ryan +spencer cause he knows he has no authority over them. real. +mike is friends with elton john - so cool

ryan found out bren+dallon didn't sleep together and he's floating he's so happy he can't believe and he's like who the hell would ever break up with brendon lolz and then bren invites him in for a drink with dark eyes and ryan is like um . no and the next chapter is called a single dot and it's them in the hotel room together aaaah

both of them couldn't sleep ajahsjhhcs

ryan's pick up lines being your eyes are beautiful 3 he is always talking about brendon's eyes and then brendon using the line against him and he's like so did it work and ryan is like no not at all even though of fucking course it did ....

jon's bracelet story and sisky being like that's the gayest thing ive ever heard haha

bren+ry and their plural breakups and romance in the workplace is never a good idea 3

ugh ryan being like i told dallon it's over between us +brendon is like oh yeah i said that too (my heart isn't breaking that it's over act casual bren)

+ryan says its over between him +clifton after sisky walked in on them +bren is like hmm is he gay +ryan's like nah he is in love with me but he's straight +ry is like well sorry about you +dallon, brendon is like um okay idc about him im in love with you but sure..

and then brendon says he's missed him and ryan is so glad to know that

oh boy dallon confronting ryan and he can't get over the fact that brendon said their affair got serious ... i mean-

ryan's love for brendon fucked him up and dallon is like he has feelings for you too and ryan is like :0 NO

'it's pathetic to see how in love with eachother you are and you're trying to deny it'

and ry can't handle thinking that

and then theyre talking on the sofa and brendon is being teasing and they're good they're better ryan's discovered a new way of living

and ryan can't understand why brendon would be jeaous (ugh he still loves you bro he's so in fucking love with you!)

and brendon thanks ryan for giving him this chance to live off of his music and ryan is proud of him and brendon is smiling and they <3 3 #boyfriends 3

ryan started building his life around brendon but he doesn't mind

and then brendon asks for him and ryan says he won't go which calms brendon and ry gets in the bed with him and ryan feels like he's home and we're all crying and then brendon can finally sleep and they curl up together

and ryan smells like himself and brendon is sick of being jealous all the time
and the ice cream with extra caramel sauce

lovers while we sleep lovers while we sleep lovers while we sleep

'and the indescribable loss is my home'
that does sound like a lyric ry

sisky is in room 708 oh man. +brendon is like ugh fuckin sisky 'love is not only blind, it's stupid as well' which is smth ryan said to him once +ryan is like wtf?

+brendon collapses

+ryan is like WHAT IF IT'S A FEVER YOU CAN'T SWEAR OUT
well that'd be pretty odd. im sorry but-

and brendon can't handle ryan and clifton being together since last summer and ryan is like do you wanna talk about this and bren says no ahaha idc and he doesn't care at all and ryan wants to say it doesn't matter it only ever mattered with him but he doesn't say ittt

+ryan thinks he'll always hurt brendon and sisky says he's not alright +ryan is like ik +then he tells dallon how to impress brendon +it breaks him

oh no dallon's in love with his boy.

what the fuck happened in leeds? which develops into a mystery novel, a series of books by the end of the day

omg ryan comes out to bob and brendon doesnt say anything is seething with jealousy about chris and ryan says nowadays he's mostly gay and it's-