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Not usually into self help but I think this one is slowly doing its job

"We are poor indeed if we are only sane." D. W. Winnicott

For Winnicott, the role of psychotherapy, play, or creativity [or for Buddhism, meditation] in unintegration.

Unable to see me as a real, and therefore limited, person, they were expecting me to be "all good," and at the same time they were completely furious with me.
"Tell them you don't think they are aware of how much they want to destroy you," he would say." Show them this pattern in their lives, how they ruin that which they most need."

Often masking a virulent rage or self-hatred, emptiness, for Kernberg, was a sign of a lack of cohesiveness in the self, of an inability to tolerate conflicting feelings for the same person.