Status Updates From When She Was Me

“We want what we can’t have and you are unobtainable. The good parts of you are fleeting and persuasive. I want to keep you safe forever. But even more than the pain and desperation is the relief. It’s finally over.”

“There comes a time when we must make a choice.”
“It was my fault. I shouldn’t have put you in harms way. I tried.”
“I met them, the twins. In them, I see me and you. Those women, those sisters, I see what we could have been. Their love and fear and panic all intertwined. I understand them because we are them.”
“Because hurting them would destroy us. Hurting them is hurting us.”

“I have to remind you there’s something to fight for still. I can’t lose you to the monster that lives in your head. I have to separate it from you. Split you apart piece by piece. You’re still my sister.”

“The darkness in your eyes I realize is not the presence of something but the absence of light, like all the good has been sucked out of you and you’re hollow.”