Status Updates From O Mago

'War is a psychosis caused by an inability to see relationships. Our relationship with fellow-men. Our relationship with our economic and historical situation. And above all our relationship to nothingness. To death.'

'...this sinister elision, this slipping from true remorse, the belief that the suffering we have precipitated ought to ennoble us, or at least make us less ignoble from then on, to disguised self-forgiveness, the belief that suffering somehow ennobles life, so that pain comes, by such a cockeyed algebra, to equal the ennoblement, or at any rate the enrichment of life...'

I knew it, and — deserved. If I was Alison I would have done the same thing. Fuck you, Urfe.

“[…] This leechlike variation of the super-ego I had created myself, fostered myself, and because of it I had always been incapable of acting freely. It was not my defence; but my despot. And now I saw it, I saw it a death too late.”

“[…] but all my life I had tried to turn life into fiction, to hold reality away; always I had acted as if a third person was watching and listening and giving me marks for good or bad behaviour - a god like a novelist, to whom I turned, like a character with the power to please, the sensitivity to feel slighted, the ability to adapt himself to whatever he believed the novelist-god wanted…”