Status Updates From The Love Haters

We're here to be alive. To keep going. To find all kinds of ways to thrive anyway. We're here to feel it all. To love and cry and love some more.
We're here to rescue ourselves— and everybody else—in every way that we can.

It was about the deep, enduring comfort that comes from looking at your life for exactly what it is, and exactly how it's unfolded-and really seeing it. The past can't hurt you now like it did then. The story of your life is always full of mystery. You can unfold it on a table like a map, and study it, and understand it in new ways.
It's not different, but you are.

Hutch nodded. "Love is the worst." But he was smiling at me. "It makes you jealous. And possessive.
And desperate. It upsets your orderly life. It haunts you, and worries you, and gets you drunk with your brother. It tempts you. It makes you say yes when you should say no, and it stops you from saying yes when that's the only thing you want to do.

"We don't last forever, sweetheart. We're not supposed to. It's okay. It's part of it all. I'm good for now, and that's enough."

But as we get older, it shortens and shortensand we can't help but feel it. As it shrinks, it makes everything more precious. We appreciate the days more because there are fewer of them to come. And it's really true. I felt it so much today. How fast it all goes. How much we have to be thankful for. What a miracle each breath is.

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^time horizon

"You're not not forgettable," Hutch said then, like I was being obtuse. "You're unforgettable."
[…]
Hutch went on. "You're a TV jingle you never wanted to learn, but can't erase. You're a puzzle that can't be solved—or a question that can't be answered—or a dream you wake up from that feels like it really happened. But it didn't happen. And it can't happen. Because that's not how dreams work."

I'm also not declaring that kisses are magic.
Though maybe the right ones at the right time with the right people are—who knows?

Then he stared into my eyes. "Do you understand what I'm saying?"
I wasn't sure. "What are you saying?"
"I'm saying that when I'm not with you, I'm thinking about you. And waiting to see you again. And we've spent all day, every day together for weeks now-and it already feels like it'll never be enough."

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Sanaol.

"Your brain stopped working?"
Hutch nodded. "It did."
"Why?"
"Because every time I'm around you-and today was the worst of all-I want..." He shook his head. "I just want ... everything."

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Lord? May stock ka pa po ba neto? Hahahahahahaha eme lang

Bizarre. I'd worried that telling him might change how he saw me.
But it never occurred to me that it might change how I saw myself.
Hutch tilted his head and frowned. "Wait," he said. "You didn't-believe them, did you?"

Important addendum: I was not one of those pretty girls who didn't know she was pretty.

NO! I was having so much fun and now I’m so ANGRY