Status Updates From Half His Age

“I want to be like them. Like people my age. People who have things in common with other people my age. I'm tired of being on the outside looking in. Studying, observing, but never just being. Maybe it could be good to try to fit in. To try to be like them. To try to be my age.”

“This is all my worst fears combined, drowning me, swallowing me whole. I'm unlovable. I'm unworthy. I'm too much and not enough at the same time. I'm a child. I'm stupid. I'm naive. I'm ugly. I'm too sensitive. Too emotional. Too angry. Too fucking angry.
I want to be grateful that I'm feeling so much. Unthawed after years of being numb.”