Status Updates From 等你到35岁 [I will wait for you...

(passage #22)

我比这世上任何一个人都更加热切地盼望他能幸福，只是，想起这幸福没有我的份，还是会非常的难过。

“I wish for his happiness more fervently than anyone else on this earth. But to think I don’t have a share in that happiness brings me great pain all the same.”

(passage #18)
“你看这个人，嘴里说喜欢我，又让我这么难过。”
“Look at this guy, says he likes me and yet makes me suffer so.”

(passage #14 - apologies if tl has errors, just trying to share the pain using my baby mandarin chinese abilities instead of bottling it up inside 😭)

“He had left nothing behind but loneliness. Thinking of the future, that I might have to live like this for many more years to come, is enough to make one taste fear and panic. So I was afraid—perhaps I wouldn’t be able to hold on until thirty-five.”

going into this autobiographical piece knowing full well it ends tragically 😔😔

wish me luck 🥲