Status Updates From Let the Waves Come In

I pull my release chord. Nothing happens. This isn’t happening. Aubrey immediately comes to my mind. Why didn’t I fight for her? Why did I just let him have her? “We’re going to f**king die!” Jones screams.

I don’t know what you want me say, Aubrey. I can’t tell you who you should choose. I want you to be happy. If being with Chandler again makes you happy, then I’m happy for you. If being with Declan makes you happy, then I’m happy for you. But you need to make a decision. Who do you want? Who makes you happy? It’s not fair to either of them. You may wind up losing them both.

Push him away. Push him away. I plead in my head, but she doesn’t. She lets him kiss her. His hands slide around her waist and rest on the curve of her ass. Her fingers dig just slightly into his biceps as she willingly returns his kiss. No! I don’t get out of my truck. Instead, I wait until they’re finished and she walks inside and he leaves.

CHEATING begins.
"I’m seeing someone, Chandler.” He stills and squeezes his eyes shut. “The guy at the gallery.” “Yes.” I’m instantly filled with guilt. I know a part of me wanted Chandler’s lips on mine. I wanted that old feeling back again. The love that we shared before. “F--k it.” he murmurs and sears his lips over mine.

You’re okay with this then?” “Why wouldn’t I be? You can tell me anything.” I close the gap and touch my lips to hers. I can taste her tears on her lips. I hate that she still carries this burden. I hate that she blames herself. “What? Did you think I would run? I’m not going anywhere.” She shakes her head and kisses me. I can feel all her emotion behind her kiss. All her relief.

As soon as we walk inside, I pull her to me. She gasps against my mouth. “Do you think I have any interest in Vella?” I ask her, my growing arousal pressing into her. I know she feels it because her eyes flicker down before looking back up. “Most men do.” she retorts and attempts to walk away. Not again. “I’m yours, Aubrey. I have no interest in her.

“You know, I’ve been trying to be a gentleman. You said I shouldn’t kiss you again and I haven’t.” he sighs. “But when you look like this, it makes it damn hard for me to be a gentleman. I just want you to know that, Aubrey.”

UGH. Sex scene with OW.
Her idea of privacy is the bathroom. F--- it. I pull a condom from my wallet while she’s unbuttoning me. I roll it over my length and push inside her before I can change my mind. “F- me hard.” she demands and I do what she asks. When we return to the table, she’s all smiles and I feel a little like calling it a night. My quickie in the bathroom suddenly not feeling like the best idea.

So we’re friends, Declan?” She seems unsure about this. I don’t blame her. We’ve barely spoken to each other for nearly six years. Not since her 18th birthday. We weren’t exactly close friends before that either. “Of course.” I reply, pretending like we’ve always been close. I suppose we could’ve been. Had I not acted like a total dickwad.

I only need him to see me once. Then he would know how I feel about him. He wouldn’t see me as Drew’s annoying friend. He wouldn’t see me as the little girl who’s always spent the afternoons and summers at their house. He would see me as Aubrey Somers. The woman who has always been in love with him. Woman…not girl.

I am loving the relationship between Aubrey and Drew. It is very refreshing.

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