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finally, ash and sawyer ☹️🩷

ASH IS HAPPY AND THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

jamie the best boy ☹️☹️☹️☹️

oh my god im gonna CRY STOP

but the fact that if things hadn’t happened the way it did, they wouldn’t have jamie and ash really loves her godson ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

god if i was ash, i’d be WRECKED GOD

TWO WEEKS FUCKING HELLLLLL SAWYER FUCKING HELLL IC CANT FUCK I WANT WOCJWOBXKSBXKSNS FUCKKKK

her thinking that sawyer never would’ve told brice ☹️

brice and ash ☹️☹️☹️☹️ best brother

“don’t you think it’s wrong to start dating my best friend’s ex? that’s got to be a rule in the bff’s guide book.”
“no more wrong than her sleeping with, getting pregnant, and subsequently marrying the man her best friend was in love with,” he gritted out.”

okay but even though amber didn’t know, he has a strong point 😭😭😭

MARRY HER?/£.?/£.!/£/£/! WHAGWGZUWGXHSB LONG TIME COMING BUT STILL WHAG TEJ FUCK

fuck he finally had the fucking balls to say it to brice

the fact that she thinks he’ll hide her again ☹️

it sucks that amber didn’t know and ash had to go through all of that. FUCK YOU SAWYER

i love ash and amber’s friendship ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

“this might have been my dream, but it hurt so much right then. ”

i want to fucking JUMP

“i tried to smile back, when all i wanted to do was cry. this was what i had always wanted. this had been my dream. to have this man, a family. to have moments like this for the rest of my life. it wasn’t real. jamie was my godson, not mine by birth, no matter how much i wanted him to be. and sawyer wasn’t mine. he had never been.”

peeling my skin off and dousing me in acid would’ve been less painful FUCK

“he must have missed the last two days to take care of me, which was totally unlike him. he had gone to work with the flu once, and amber had called me to complain about it. even when we had been together, he had never missed a day of work. never been late.”

and he missed work just for her IM SICK

“the scars were my mementos from a time when i had thought i was going to die, but they were nothing to the pain i had faced when i had come home, months later than expected, to find out that sawyer had married amber.”

im. sick. SO FUCKIJG SICK.

“when he had hesitated, i had realized that i was never going to be more to him than his secret fuck buddy. if he had loved me, then he wouldn’t have hidden the fact that we were together. realizing that had hurt more than anything i had ever felt up to that point in my life. i was so in love with him, but he obviously hadn’t felt anywhere close to the same thing for me.”

GOD IM SO FUCKING SICK FUCK

“he had hated when i had to go away on assignments, especially if it meant traveling to the more dangerous countries. my job had always been important to me, but i had been ready to give it up for him. if he would only tell the world that we were together.”

fuck some light me on fire. i can’t oh god

“i had been in love, and happier than i could ever remember being in my entire life. except for one thing. he wouldn’t let me tell anyone. he hadn’t wanted to tell brice, afraid my brother wouldn’t approve. therefore, i had kept my mouth shut. i hadn’t told anyone, not even amber.”

the fucking bastard GODDAMN IF

“when he had been mine … no, when we had been together, i had done this often.”

i really want to jump off a cliff fuck

“it had been weird to have this man take care of me. weird, but my heart had soaked up every second of it. the stupid organ.”

valid

“it started at her right ear and went down, all the way to the base of her throat, and across to her collar bone on the left side. it was deep.”

OH MY GOD RHATS HUGE

“ash had one huge weakness, and it was my kid. i was going to hell, anyway, so i didn’t care that i was using my son to get what i wanted.”

PLEASEEEEE 😭😭😭😭

“i don’t want to leave you if you’re sick. i’ll take care of you, aunt ash. just like you do me when i’m sick.”

☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ JAMIE BABY

STOPPP JAMIE I LOVE YOU ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

“i had fucked up. i had made the biggest mistake of my life, and i couldn’t regret it because it had given me my son. but with the creation of Jamie, i had lost everything else that was important to me. ”

but it still hurts you bastard GOD I CAN’T SOMEONE SHOOT ME PLEASE I CAN’T DO THIS

i didn’t even know THROAT SPRAY EXISTED???