Status Updates From Kaddish por el hijo no nacido

This book is taking me FOREVERRRRRR, but it’s very worthwhile so far!

auschwitz, i said to my wife, manifests itself to me in the image of a father; yes, the words father and auschwitz elicit the same echo within me, i said to my wife. and if the assertion that god is a glorified father figure holds any truth, then god manifested himself to me in the image of auschwitz

under certain circumstances, at a certain temperature, metaphorically speaking, words lose their substance, their content, their meaning, they simply deliquesce, so that in this vaporous state deeds alone, naked deeds, show any tendency to solidity, it is deeds alone that we can take in our hands, so to speak, and examine like a mute lump of mineral, like a crystal

our true situation, what it is you are serving...is neither necessary nor unnecessary but simply a matter of decisions...neither satanic nor unfathomably and spellbindingly intricate, nor something that majestically sweeps us up with it, no, it is just vulgar, mean, murderous, stupid, hypocritical, and even at the moments of its greatest achievements at best merely well organized

the question...[of] my existence viewed as the potentiality of your being...was altered, once and for all, in the following manner: your non-existence viewed as the necessary and radical liquidation of my own existence