Status Updates From Blue Hunger

half way through and i am not ok it hurts in a good way 😭

Nós entendemos profundamente as coisas — a morte, o amor, o amor que não acaba com a morte, a morte que não acaba com o amor

I wanted to be the ditch, the maddening bumpiness, the rut interrupting the wheel's perfect propulsion. I wanted to become her nagging obsession.

I feel like I’m reading the diary of someone in complete distress

This read started out slow but has quickly picked up. Once the protagonist meets Xu and their relationship begins to spiral out of control “Ruben’s” control, I am able to relate more and more, sickeningly so. She stares in the mirror, repeating her lover’s name over and over until the sounds lose meaning. Sigh.