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How heavy my mind is,
filled with the past.
Is there enough room
for the world to penetrate?
It must go somewhere,
it cannot simply sit on the surface—

I’m only on chapter 3 but this book is already giving me all the ~feels~ in the world!!

IS THIS GOING TO BREAK MY HEART?

“Tell me I don’t know you when I could draw both sides of this hand, your hand, from memory.”

*intense screaming and fist banging into my pillow*

Chapter 5B of Both Sides though!! 3

“Long relationships might be richer, but relatively brief, relatively uncomplicated encounters with interesting people could be lovely as well. Every person you knew, every person you loved even, did not have to consume you for the time to have been worthwhile.”

This book excites me!! Will this finally cure my 2-year long reading slump? 🤔

smiling and crying and laughing

“I feel like I have this big secret, and the secret is that I don’t know what I’m doing and it’s only a matter of time before they find out.”

SHSJSHSKSSBSK 😩 same lol

“I loved once, I loved twice,
easily three times I loved.
And in between
my heart reconstructed itself perfectly
like a worm.
And my dreams also reconstructed themselves.”

To be an artist means a lifetime of being told no, with the occasional yes showing up just to give you enough hope to carry on.

Dull and very predictable. I’m reading so fast now because I just want to be done.

Among all social and psychological reasons that may account for my past, of one I am certain: these things happened to me so that I might recount them. Maybe the true purpose of my life is for my body, my sensations and my thoughts to become writing, in other words, something intelligible and universal, causing my existence to merge into the lives and heads of other people.

“For many vague, ill-formed reasons, I wanted to ask: Can something that never truly properly began be said to have ended? If I had wondered it out loud, I like to imagine that she would have said: No, that’s the beauty of it, something that never properly began, never ends.”

*punches walls*
*screams into a pillow*

“Presumably, remembered suffering never feels as bad as present suffering, even if it was really a lot worse - we can't remember how much worse it was, because remembering is weaker than experiencing.“

If knowing someone makes that person stay with you forever, not knowing someone does the same trick: death does not take the dead away; it only makes them grow more deeply into you.

No, it's not fair, but what makes earth feel like Hell is our expectation that it should feel like Heaven. Earth is earth. Dead is dead. You'll find out for yourself soon enough. It won't help the situation for you to get all upset.

Harry, there is never a perfect answer to this messy, emotional world. Perfection is beyond the reach of humankind, beyond the reach of magic. In every shining moment of happiness is that drop of poison: the knowledge that pain will come again. Be honest to those you love, show them your pain. To suffer is as human as to breathe.

Privilege is something to be aware of, to fight to see beyond, but ultimately to be grateful for. It's like a bulletproof; it makes you hard to kill.

Privilege is something to be aware of, to fight to see beyond, but ultimately to be grateful for. It's like a bulletproof; it makes you hard to kill.

Stormy 😭

“We were all heading for each other on a collision course, no matter what. Maybe some people are just meant to be in the same story.”

Love does as it undoes. It goes after, with equal tenacity: joy and heartbreak.

You can hide memories, but you can't erase the history that produced them.

“I am glad to be on planet Earth with you. It would be much lonelier otherwise.”
I reach for his hand and hold it.
“I, too,” I say.

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“Your mind will believe comforting lies while also knowing the painful truths that make those lies necessary. And your mind will punish you for believing both.”

I am really itching to finish this book but my copy is lost somewhere in the house. Haha this happens to me ALL THE TIME. :) :(

What a wonderful thing it is to find and be found by your 100% perfect other. It's a miracle, a cosmic miracle.