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if the uni knew about the content of this book they'd take it off the syllabus so fast CAUSE HUH. crazy

what an awful man

WHAT IS TAKING SO LONG

this is a slow-burn if i've read one. okay, little side-note i miss broody, mysterious men. i'm sorry, but i don't think i'm ever going to be into the golden-retriever type. I WANT SCARY MYSTERIOUS DARK HAIRED MEN. Deacon is just too not my type at the moment and i don't know. i think i want to read a dark-romance...okay for safety concerns, no one's kidnapped me but gosh i need the "touch her and i kill you" thing

i feel so bad for larynn

fantasy, my beloved, im sorry i left you

also, its actually embarrassing how much time it takes me to figure out what the ARABIC words are meant to be. to be fair, the english spelling is throwing me off, how am i meant to figure out the intonation

when does this end

so many thoughts but im sleepy and hungry and i need to pray and my eyes are crossed from all the reading

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP THERES NO WAY
SCARLETT??? LUKAS? I JUMPED OFF OF MY BED LIKE A LOONEY TUNES CHARACTER

i'm not joking when I say i've never had the urge to touch grass more than right now, its not even because of the book even though i do think that the "problematic" part of the title should've been written in the biggest font size possible, i've been reading all day and its somehow still 6pm or maybe its already 6pm?? I don't know, i'm clearly losing any grip on reality—a very summery warm reality = no grass for me.

in my defense, this is me enjoying bed-rotting before my 5th of july plans. also, this better end well or im suing—i think it will, don't believe Ali Hazelwood is a fan of terrible endings. teared up a little at Rue's story—i'm praying she gets her happy ending. blip blop, i should probably take a little break

binge reading in the best thing i've discovered in my entire life.

also im scared. i feel like i know what Florence did. jitters.

sleep's whispering to me. until tomorrow Eli (hot name by the way)

my stance against angry-problematic-sex will always be harsh. STOP DOING THE 3AIB WHEN ONE PERSON IS PISSED AT THE OTHER. one million things could go wrong. and how on earth did Scarlett just gloss over the fact that he said that about Pen (i mean i was thinking about the same thing but he truly didn't hold back)— CAN THEY COMMUNICATE.

i put the book down cause i need to pray, check my phone: grades are out, yell "thank you!" into my empty bedroom, realise i have a headache and mourn the tragedy of my reality because I WANT A LUKAS SCARLETT MOMENT. could my GPA take a plunge in the next few minutes? maybe. but is finding love in a very-not-real book more important? yes. I HATE THEM FOR BEING SO IN LOVE AND I HATE HOW MUCH I LOVE LUKAS. book bf #4

mental health break!!! no cause that last line was crazy actually.

it's getting a bit personal now

that's enough for today. my transcript comes out tomorrow—i should sleep and prep my brain instead of letting it melt away at the prospect of having a man like Lukas. heavy sighs people.

holy macaroni. suggestive eyebrow wiggling doesn't begin to describe what i'm feeling. i had to jump up from bed and put the book far away, out-of-reach. searches up breathing exercises.

"Bye, Scarlett." BOOOOO GET A ROOM




(i miss alpha male men-no i haven't been kidnapped)

i have no idea where this is heading and i'm terrified. i already relate to the mc in a million different ways and i love ali hazelwoods books which is why im continuing this buttt it better not end how its foreshadowed to end...and like i said im so in love with the first love trope that i dont know how i feel about what's happening right now—uncharted territory