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cry log: 1 (+1 when i thought about it later and started crying again) so 2

however the fmc is starting to annoy me icl

i really appreciate the fmc’s devotion to edgar allen poe, as someone who chose him for every single book report and research paper i ever needed to do in school

this world reminds me so much of Hellaverse omg i love

especially Death’s Door, LLC reminds me of I.M.P., just less murder-y and more corporate lmao

the talk about the loss of a parent does feel like a punch to the gut bc i’m also a member of the dead parent club but it’s fine, we push through 🥲 so far it is pretty funny aside from the grief aspect and the audiobook is fantastic

my least favorite in the series so far :/ josie is pmo

i love damon torrance, he is the love of my life, my life will forever be in shambles bc he is not real and i cannot have him. there is indefinitely a damon-shaped hole in my heart. i never want to leave the fountain. i will suffer with this pain for the rest of my life.

i wanted to add one last quote on here but there’s too many.

“What we have together isn’t definable by a word created by another man. No combination of letters or formulated language can encompass the magnitude of our tragedies. Our pain. Our euphoria. Love is beneath us.”

“i hate you” “that’s fine” 😂

this certainly is an experience

“You’re a woman without a voice, Briony,” he whispers against my lips. “Let me be the throat through which you scream.”

the ending of this was so wholesome and cute 🥹😭😭😭🥹😭😭😭😭😭😭

i wish i was rachel

the drama in this is craaazzyy like TEEAAAA

“I knew without a doubt that this was who I would’ve been if I hadn’t become me. If I hadn’t learned to cope with pain in all the worst ways growing up in that house.” 😭😭💔

“I would’ve had no other need than to be good, because I wasn’t so twisted that I needed anything else to be happy.“ 😭😭💔💔💔

the found family and poly dynamics in this are so good omg

“I knew what it was like to have horrible things being done to your body, and to watch it betray you and make you think you’re bad for liking it when you knew you didn’t.” :(((

“I go impossibly still, glancing between them, reading their body language. That’s when it hits me. They behave like domestic life partners. They behave like lovers. Like soul mates.” i love them omg

“I love how the world looks when I’m with you. I want it to be you.” 😭😩 “You’re not making me dirty. There is no you. There’s no me. This is us. Just us.” 😭😭😭😭

i’m having so much fun, go rays 😛🏒📣

“If you alone found out what the lie was, then you’re probably right—it would make no great difference. But if you all found out what the lie was, it might conceivably make a very great difference indeed.”

fully in my hockey era let’s go 🏒🥅

“Many young people of this country had made an ingenuous & disorganized effort to escape from captivity but ultimately failed, because they were unable to find the bars of the cage. If you can’t discover what’s keeping you in, the will to get out soon becomes confused & ineffectual”

“You’re captives of a civilizational system that more or less compels you to go on destroying the world in order to live”

reread/finally finish

“The queen is the most valuable player,” I told her, “but to win, she’s not the last one standing. Her job”—I paused, arching an eyebrow—“ is to protect the king.”

i love all the chess references bc i love chess ♟️