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This book is causing me so much emotional pain as an anxiously attached person. There are things about myself I have been avoiding for a very long time and now as I'm coming to terms with them it's a terrible ache. I am digesting the book slowly so that the message may stick.

"My life was narrated for me by others. Their voices were forceful, emphatic, absolute. It had never occured to me that my voice might be as strong as theirs"

"Discipline is contagious". I have found this to be true. The more disciplined I am, the more ownership I take, the more I lead by example, people around me tend to "magically" better themselves. A while ago I decided to quit judgment and gossip, and although it's not always easy and often I fail, I find that people around me change as a result. Is it phsycological? Is it mystical? Who knows! The fact is, it works.

I'm quitting. I tried. It's terrible.